Workout: 30DS + 2 miles
Friends: The One With The Engagement Pictures
Both workouts were fine. I slept so great last night... and I didn't have to get up early to work out because it is summer break! So I worked out at 7 - SO nice! I think I would prefer to get started between 6 & 6:30, but I couldn't get myself out of bed that early this morning.
Neck is still incredibly sore and stiff. Dave massaged it last night and it didn't help at all. I took some back pain pills this morning and it is still sore, but I can at least turn my head now. Hamster is still hanging on for dear life. I've given him permission to go, but apparently he doesn't care about what I say. Dave and I have gone round and round about what is the best thing to do for him - he wants to poison him, but I can't stand the thought of that. So ultimately, he thinks it is more humane to allow him to die naturally in his own environment - where he is fed, watered, warm and safe. I defer to him, because I can't stand the thought of intentionally killing an animal (costs $49 to have the vet do it!!!). I think the stress of this situation is manifesting itself in my still, sore neck... so I need him to get on with it already!!!
Ran in shoes today. Heart rate was slightly higher than when I run barefoot: 160ish bpm. Still much lower than that 176 it was when I first started. I think I'm doing the right thing by going slow. Maybe by the fall I'll be able to run a decent pace again without wanting to kill myself the whole time.
When I think back to the three years I spent trying so hard to be a runner, I know that I truly enjoyed running on very few occasions. It was more a matter of sheer determination and will to accomplish what I wanted to accomplish. A matter of pride in being able to tell people that I ran 5-12 miles. A matter of obsession in burning calories or keeping to a training plan. I started out with good motivation - wanting to run and enjoy it. I had that very briefly until last summer when I became obsessive about it all. I need to not be like that. My family needs me to not be like that. I am enjoying my workouts and my eating right now. I'm not trying to lose weight, I'm trying to be healthy. And truly, I don't NEED to lose weight... I'm good where I'm at. I NEED to get my cholesterol lowered and to be in a place where I enjoy working out so I get the benefit of exercising everyday, but don't do it for fear that if I don't I'll get fatter. I've been at this weight (although tend to gain 5lbs at christmas and then lose it in January) for 4 1/2 years, I think I can be confident that I no longer have to run away from those 15 pounds.
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Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Thursday June 2, 2011
Workout: 30DS + 2 1/2 miles
Friends: The One with The Proposal
Tired today. And sore. Debated about getting up - had quite the argument in my head before I finally got myself out of bed. Ultimately, it is so much nicer to just be done and have it over with rather than trying to find time during the day to get a workout & shower in.
30DS was fine. I could tell my body was sore & tired while I was running though. I ran 2 miles at 5.0 and then walked the last half of a mile because I was sick of it.
Calves are sore today. Bottoms of my feet are still tender. I like being sore in different places because I feel like I'm getting a different or better workout, so I like it that my calves are sore - they normally are not. And they're sore on the inside of my leg, rather than the back. Body. is. tired.
Had an interesting conversation over email with a friend yesterday. She is the same height is me and weighs 155. She, too, has been trying to lose weight by eating 6 small meals throughout the day. She has had some initial success, but then it stopped. Anyway, while going over things via email she says: Wait - do you see that you're 122??? Are you not getting that? I mean is it the frustration of not being able to figure out how to lose those last couple of pounds? or are you seeing something in the mirror that doesn't match what is actually there?
Made me pause. Here was my response:
Friends: The One with The Proposal
Tired today. And sore. Debated about getting up - had quite the argument in my head before I finally got myself out of bed. Ultimately, it is so much nicer to just be done and have it over with rather than trying to find time during the day to get a workout & shower in.
30DS was fine. I could tell my body was sore & tired while I was running though. I ran 2 miles at 5.0 and then walked the last half of a mile because I was sick of it.
Calves are sore today. Bottoms of my feet are still tender. I like being sore in different places because I feel like I'm getting a different or better workout, so I like it that my calves are sore - they normally are not. And they're sore on the inside of my leg, rather than the back. Body. is. tired.
Had an interesting conversation over email with a friend yesterday. She is the same height is me and weighs 155. She, too, has been trying to lose weight by eating 6 small meals throughout the day. She has had some initial success, but then it stopped. Anyway, while going over things via email she says: Wait - do you see that you're 122??? Are you not getting that? I mean is it the frustration of not being able to figure out how to lose those last couple of pounds? or are you seeing something in the mirror that doesn't match what is actually there?
Made me pause. Here was my response:
- Yes, I see that I'm 122! Believe me, its not lost on me! I"m happy with 122, but based on my body type, I wish I was slightly less... however, I've never been willing or able to get down past 119 and stay there. I'm just not willing to do what it takes, I guess. And I have to remind myself that no matter what my weight - 122, 110, 135, 145, I will always have the same body issues - just on a smaller or larger scale. I have big and long muscles but short distances from joint to joint (elbow to wrist / knee to ankle). So instead of being thin and lean, my long, big muscles look huge & I don't have those shapely calves/ankles that I would love to have and I feel like my arms look fat - even though I know I'm strong, it just doesn't translate. And I carry my weight in my hips and thighs... so while I have a small waist, which is awesome, my thighs always look huge. And finding jeans and shorts? Ugh - if they fit my thighs and butt, there is a gigantic gap in the waist. I need to have drawstring bottoms, but you can't find them very easily - when I do, I buy several in different colors. Anyway, all that to say - I'm definitely thrilled with 122, I guess I would - like you - like to be lean and fit with sexy definition! Just not sure that could ever happen for me. Based on that, though - I want you to tell me EVERYTHING those trainers tell you!!!!!! And I am so excited for you to do this - its going to rock! You're going to rock!
I've had the same feeling so many times - I just want someone to fix me. Just tell me what to eat and exactly what to do and I'll do it. I'm so sick of trying to solve the puzzle! At the same time, I get frustrated with the cost and inconvenience of eating a plant based diet. I don't care what people say - it is NOT cheaper. And it is totally a pain in the ass to replenish produce every 3-5 days instead of grocery shopping once a week. But I think it is the most healthy way to eat, so I need to suck it up and get past that.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Tuesday May 31, 2011
Workout: 30 Day Shred + 2 Miles running at 5.0mph
Friends: The One Where Paul is a Neat Guy
Went to the zoo yesterday. Had a good breakfast, a light lunch at the zoo (packed) and a really crappy dinner at the in-laws. Too many cheesy potatos and ice cream dessert. It was good, but I felt really icky afterward - not guilty icky, but physically. So at least that is a reminder why I need to be diligent in eating well.
Slept in this morning because I was so tired and Georgia was up twice last night with growing pains. So I just finished my workout and am going to hit the shower, then a good breakfast and some coffee. Workout was good. I had intended to do a full 30:00 on the treadmill, but it was getting too close to ticket time so I had to cut it short.
I feel like by running slower I am more able to focus on proper breathing, rather than going to through the constant mental gymnastics of convincing myself that I'm not miserable. Running slower is somewhat enjoyable because its not so difficult. My heart rate is still reaching that 168-174 range, but I don't feel like my head is going to explode. Maybe someday I will get back to running outside, but for now I'm enjoying this and that is more important to me for now.
Yesterday after walking all day at the zoo in sandals, my feet were so tired and my knees were so sore. My knees have really been bugging me lately. I need new shoes in a bad way. Next month they will be in the budget (PS - April and May are such expensive months, geesh it was craziness over here).
Friends: The One Where Paul is a Neat Guy
Went to the zoo yesterday. Had a good breakfast, a light lunch at the zoo (packed) and a really crappy dinner at the in-laws. Too many cheesy potatos and ice cream dessert. It was good, but I felt really icky afterward - not guilty icky, but physically. So at least that is a reminder why I need to be diligent in eating well.
Slept in this morning because I was so tired and Georgia was up twice last night with growing pains. So I just finished my workout and am going to hit the shower, then a good breakfast and some coffee. Workout was good. I had intended to do a full 30:00 on the treadmill, but it was getting too close to ticket time so I had to cut it short.
I feel like by running slower I am more able to focus on proper breathing, rather than going to through the constant mental gymnastics of convincing myself that I'm not miserable. Running slower is somewhat enjoyable because its not so difficult. My heart rate is still reaching that 168-174 range, but I don't feel like my head is going to explode. Maybe someday I will get back to running outside, but for now I'm enjoying this and that is more important to me for now.
Yesterday after walking all day at the zoo in sandals, my feet were so tired and my knees were so sore. My knees have really been bugging me lately. I need new shoes in a bad way. Next month they will be in the budget (PS - April and May are such expensive months, geesh it was craziness over here).
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