Sleep: bed at 11 with 2 advil pm, slept until alarm at 7am
We are home and I slept fairly well the rest of last week, although I did use advil pm to ensure that I would sleep. Christene does not want me to take these - and I 100% agree, however, if I had to be awake for 2 hours in the middle of the night while sleeping in a hotel with my family, I would have gone crazy (nowhere to go). And Saturday & Sunday I was just so incredibly exhausted that I couldn't handle the thought of not sleeping. But as of last night I won't be taking them - and I shouldn't have to because I'm home and in control of what I prepare and what I eat.
This morning I worked out for the first time in at least 6 weeks. I was going to start P90x, but I got up a little late and I was intimidated... a little worried about how sore I'll be after not having worked out for so long. Instead I did Jillian Michael's Yoga Meltdown, which was tough enough as it was.
I weighed myself this morning and braced myself for the weight that I've been for the longest time - around 128-130. I was 125.4. That is incredible. I have not been that low in a year at least. And I haven't been killing myself with my workouts, I haven't been counting calories, I've been eating incredible foods and enjoying them all. The only thing I miss is wine. I don't miss sweets, I don't miss grains, I don't miss anything else - just wine. So hopefully I'll be able to add that back in at some point.
Otherwise, I feel great. I've gotten a few nights of sleep. I enjoy my food. I enjoy not worrying about what I'm eating. I enjoy not feeling guilty about what I'm eating. I enjoy the freedom of the restrictions I have... I simply can't eat so many things that its more freeing - there are no mental gymnastics of "I really want that but I shouldn't eat it", there are no mental gymnastics of feeling guilty because I ate something I shouldn't have. I can eat all of the greens, vegetables, meat, berries, avocados, oil, etc that I want. That is actually a lot of food. I'm feeling great about all of this. And if I keep sleeping, I'll be even better!
Monday, August 12, 2013
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Day 24 - Wednesday August 7, 2013
We've been on vacation since last Friday. We drove down to Destin, FL and left at 6:00am friday morning. We drove 8 hours to Nashville, stopped and went to the zoo and had dinner with our friends, then continued on to Birmingham, AL. Left again on Saturday morning and got to Destin around 4:30 pm. We packed a cooler of food and I stayed on target the entire time. Saturday night was a group dinner buffet and I again stayed on target and felt comfortable that I was not eating gluten. I slept decently Friday and saturday nights - I took Advil PM just to make sure. I slept through the nights both nights, but didn't feel super rested either night.
Sunday night I stayed on target throughout the day and thought I did at dinner, too. We had seafood at a local restaurant - scallops, crab & fish. Although I told the waiter that I needed my food to be gluten free, I perceived him to shrug me off and kind of roll his eyes. There must have been some kind of gluten in the seasoning on the fish & the scallops because I was up at 3:30 again (even with the Advil PM) and didn't get back to sleep until 5:30/6:00. We had to get up early to be at breakfast and a meeting on monday morning so I didn't have a chance to sleep any later.
Monday I again stayed on target throughout the day. And again woke up over night: 3:00-5:??. For dinner we had a group dinner at the Gulfarium. We had burgers, hot dogs, pulled pork, chicken. I ate a hamburger, a hot dog and some pulled pork (I was told that there was no bbq sauce on it). In retrospect, i think i should have skipped the pulled pork - you just never know what it is seasoned with. So, fail on my part.
Tuesday, again on target (we have a full kitchen so I went and bought the groceries that I needed so I could eat the same here as I do at home). For dinner we went to a restaurant called Calahan's. The waiter was very helpful and attentive to my gluten issue. I had grilled pork chops, vegetables and a side salad with oil & vinegar. I didn't take the advil pm last night because it wasn't helping anyway. I woke at 2 and fell back to sleep around 3:15 and slept until 6:45. I tried to go back to sleep but it wasn't going to happen. I don't feel horrible this morning, but I certainly don't feel rested.
I understand that we are on vacation and I can only control so much when we're eating food prepared by other people. The restaurants here do not seem to be allergen sensitive - they do not have gluten free menus or gluten free items on their menus. I'm trying my best to not get discouraged or upset, however, it is somewhat upsetting that it feels like I have to eat absolutely perfectly or i will suffer at night. I don't want to go to bed anymore.
I will continue to do what I'm doing and hope for the best during the rest of this week.
Sunday night I stayed on target throughout the day and thought I did at dinner, too. We had seafood at a local restaurant - scallops, crab & fish. Although I told the waiter that I needed my food to be gluten free, I perceived him to shrug me off and kind of roll his eyes. There must have been some kind of gluten in the seasoning on the fish & the scallops because I was up at 3:30 again (even with the Advil PM) and didn't get back to sleep until 5:30/6:00. We had to get up early to be at breakfast and a meeting on monday morning so I didn't have a chance to sleep any later.
Monday I again stayed on target throughout the day. And again woke up over night: 3:00-5:??. For dinner we had a group dinner at the Gulfarium. We had burgers, hot dogs, pulled pork, chicken. I ate a hamburger, a hot dog and some pulled pork (I was told that there was no bbq sauce on it). In retrospect, i think i should have skipped the pulled pork - you just never know what it is seasoned with. So, fail on my part.
Tuesday, again on target (we have a full kitchen so I went and bought the groceries that I needed so I could eat the same here as I do at home). For dinner we went to a restaurant called Calahan's. The waiter was very helpful and attentive to my gluten issue. I had grilled pork chops, vegetables and a side salad with oil & vinegar. I didn't take the advil pm last night because it wasn't helping anyway. I woke at 2 and fell back to sleep around 3:15 and slept until 6:45. I tried to go back to sleep but it wasn't going to happen. I don't feel horrible this morning, but I certainly don't feel rested.
I understand that we are on vacation and I can only control so much when we're eating food prepared by other people. The restaurants here do not seem to be allergen sensitive - they do not have gluten free menus or gluten free items on their menus. I'm trying my best to not get discouraged or upset, however, it is somewhat upsetting that it feels like I have to eat absolutely perfectly or i will suffer at night. I don't want to go to bed anymore.
I will continue to do what I'm doing and hope for the best during the rest of this week.
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