Friday, December 9, 2011

Friday December 9, 2011

Tuesday - p90x plyometrix
Its been a couple of weeks since I've done this workout and I hate it just as much as I did before I started running to replace it!  Ugh, its such a good, killer workout.  The only thing that gets me through it is that it IS an awesome workout, but it hurts so bad!
Average heart rate: 141 (for the record, i do not start my heart rate until after the warm up, and stop it just before the cool down)


Wednesday - p90x Shoulders/Arms
I hate this workout, too.  I just really don't like to to biceps... partly because I have a hard time fatiguing myself without going ape-crap with changing the weights after each exercise.  Its fine, though.  Just not a huge fan of it.
Average heart rate: 93


Thursday - run 3 miles on treadmill
Was going to run outside, but chickened out because it was cold.  I need to get over that...  There was a pretty nice sunrise going on that I decided to skip out on, and it was perfectly still - no branches were moving at all.  It would have been a nice run, but I sketched out and went to the treadmill.  I ran at 10:30/mile pace and did pretty well with it.  It was still pretty difficult to sustain because
Average heart rate: 161


Friday - p90x Back/Legs
During this workout I made sure to run in place during any breaks (while Dave was doing his pullups) so that my heart rate would stay up.  I think that one reason why my heart rate was so low during the shoulders/arm workout is because we had to pause a lot to allow Dave to change his weights and I would essentially cool off during that time.  So I made sure to keep moving during the breaks today.  
Average heart rate: 128

Monday, December 5, 2011

Monday December 5, 2011

Catch up...


Friday - Core Synergistics
I like this workout more and more each time I do it.  I actually kind of enjoyed it on Friday morning.  Still tough, though!


Saturday - intervals on the treadmill
It was pretty wet outside when I woke up, so I opted to run intervals on the treadmill instead of kicking water up on my legs.  I also decided that I'd probably do intervals most of the time if I had to run inside because I think it might be the only way I can get through the boredom of staring at the concrete wall.


Anyway, intervals were good!  I did a 5 minute warmup at 5.0 (12:00/mile), where my heart rate stayed pretty steady at 145.  Then 1:00 at 5.5, 1:00 at 6.0, 1:00 at 6.5 and 2:00 at 4.0 - repeat.  The last interval I came down the speeds instead of going right back to 4.0 and my heart rate stayed steady during that set.  Heart rate was 145 / 155 / 167 / 171 respectively.  I ran 3 miles total, but don't remember the time - must have been pretty close to 34:00.  I enjoyed it and I only needed 2 quick 15 second breaks to take a drink of water.  I really like having the heart rate monitor while I'm running.  Now I know I'm not crazy - it really is as high as I thought.


Today - p90x Chest / Back
Back to the first rotation of workouts.  This workout is hard and I don't enjoy it as much the other ones, but it was fine.  I didn't find that my numbers (pushups or pullups) have increased since the last time I did this specific workout, but they did remain pretty similar.  


My weight was down to 125.4 last Friday, which is the lowest since the beginning of the summer.  It fluctuated over the weekend - 127.4, 127.2, 127.6 this morning.  I'm okay with that - I know I didn't gain 2 pounds over night.  And I didn't eat terribly over the weekend. 



Thursday, December 1, 2011

Thursday December 1, 2011

catchup since last tuesday...

Wednesday - p90x something

Don't remember


Thursday - ran 37:00 with Dave
Ran around my in-laws' neighborhood with Dave.  It was nice.  We ran to the park, then around the path and wound our way back through the neighborhood.  We ran 20:00+ straight before taking a walking break.  It felt good and I love running with Dave - he pushes me and encourages me, and its so nice to have someone else there with me:)


Friday - p90x Back/Legs
LOVE this workout!


Saturday - 
missed my opportunity to run on Saturday morning, so no workout.


Monday - p90x Core Synergistics
Beginning of recovery week (8).  The officially scheduled workout was yoga, but I wanted to do something harder than that, so I did Tuesday's workout.  Its so hard - there are some exercises that I just forward through because there is no way I can even attempt them.  BUT I'm better than I was the first time.


Tuesday - run 30:00 on the treadmill
This was the worst.  It was horrible.  I had a hard time immediately and couldn't settle in.  I ended up messing with the speed a lot and taking a lot of mini breaks.  I felt horrible the whole time.


Wednesday - p90x KenPo
Used my heart rate monitor for the first time!  Had an average heart rate of 117 during this workout - which is not very high.  Tony mentions that his is 165 at one point... not sure how he is getting it that high.  Which is exactly why I needed to add the running in - because at least this workout is not a sufficient cardio workout for me.


Thursday - Run 3 miles outside
This was my best run in a long, long time and I am so happy and proud of myself!  I ran the whole 3 miles without one break to walk or stop.  My lower left back muscle and left hip were clenched much of the time, too, but I mentally gutted through it by giving myself small goals.  I am so proud of this!

My average heart rate was 171... there were a few times that I looked down and saw 179, but usually after I had just gone up an incline or a hill.  Mostly I saw 175.  According to this website: 
http://www.braydenwm.com/calburn.htm that equals 392 calories burned.  Had I entered it into myfitnesspal.com, it would have said 270 calories.  So I'm really glad I have the HRM!  I'm excited to use it for all of my workouts.

Eating has been fantastic.  Have been counting calories this week and have been eating oatmeal w/ almond butter & 1/2 apple right away after my shower, which seems to be helping with my fatigue throughout the day.  Recovery meal, duh.  Also trying to eat a small meal/snack every 3 hours so I'm not backloading my calories all the time.  All of this seems to be working well.  Down to 127.2, which is the lowest since the cottage vacation this summer.  Going to be weighing every day to monitor through Christmas season.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Tuesday November 22, 2011

catchup since the last post


Friday - p90x back & legs
Still really love this workout.  I love burning my legs out like that - it doesn't happen often.  The workout itself is also enjoyable.


Had a meltdown on Friday morning... I put my jeans from last year on and they were too tight, so I put the next size up and those were also too tight.  I'm not that much heavier...  just amazing what a difference 5lbs makes on my body.  So i spent the morning feeling crappy and discouraged.  As my friend says, I feel like I'm ugly-Jana right now.  I have a horrible, horrible haircut that makes me want to cry every morning, I don't fit in my clothes, and I'm constantly sore.  I'm frustrated because I'm putting in SO.MUCH. effort for little to no results.  I work harder and more consistently than most people that I know, I'm very disciplined with my eating M-F.  So it must be the weekends, I don't know - I just know that something needs to change.


Saturday - 5k
Ran a 5k with Dave and Nora.  It was so much fun.  Nora was excited to do it and it was really hard for her.  We were running s.l.o.w.  Dave and I both felt like we weren't actually running :)  Nora needed a walking break at 7:30, so we walked for 1 minute, then ran for another 7 1/2 minutes.  She was crying and very upset at that point.  I'm not sure what she was crying about, but we did our best to distract her and get her through it.  She had a rough time, but she completed it and I am so, so proud of her!  Our final (unofficial - they didn't officially time the race) was 37:20.  I had a blast and I'm so happy that we did it and so excited for Nora that she actually did a race and that she gutted through it and got it done!


Monday - p90x chest/shoulders/triceps
I hate this workout.  Hate it.  And it tweaks my right elbow/tendon, which makes me hate it even more.  I feel incredibly inadequate throughout the whole workout, but I know its important so I will keep going.


Tuesday - Run 3 miles
I've decided to eliminate the t/th/s p90x workouts and run 3 miles instead.  There are a few reasons for this.
1) I need to do some real cardio and condition my heart to get my heart rate down
2) running in addition to the p90x workouts was making me way too tired
3) I think I might be exercising more/harder than what I realize and not eating enough (based on a couple of things I read online recently)
4) I want to love running again and I think I'm ready to do it


I also bought a heart rate monitor yesterday with my kohl's cash, so as soon as I get that I'll have a better idea of how many calories I'm actually burning (saw something on myfitnesspal that p90x yoga burns 270 calories... but if i enter it it says much less.  There is also no way to enter the p90x workouts anywhere.  I think that I need to have a more accurate reading of how hard I'm actually working and eat based on that.  I also think it would be good to run based on my heart rate, rather than killing myself to keep up with my music.  


Lots of thoughts lately... Regardless, I just want to get out of this ugly-Jana stage and feeling.  It is going to take time to lose 5lbs & for my hair to grow out :)

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Thursday November 17, 2011

Catch up since Monday - 


Tuesday - p90x Plyometrix
Ugh.  Thats all I have to say about that


Wednesday - p90x Back & Biceps + run 2 miles
I hate back and biceps.  I really do.  This is a really difficult workout and I'm feeling it today. I also ran right afterward and only had enough time to do 2 miles.  Its also pretty hard to run right after doing a back workout - took me almost a mile to loosen up.  Running was fine... I lowered my pace to 10:54/mile (5.5), but still had a heart rate in the mid 170's - better than mid 180's, but not much better.  I at least felt like I could sustain that for a good amount of time and was able to make it to 17:00 before I jumped off to take a quick drink & turn on the fan.  


Today - 
I haven't worked out yet today.  And I'm really discouraged right now.  I am so sore and so exhausted and tired all the time, it just makes me crabby.  My back is sore - not wrenched or tweaked, just tired and sore.  And I never feel great.  Yesterday my wrists and arms ached all day because of the back/bicep workout.  Aching is the worst...  I'd rather be injured or be in pain, I hate aches.  My right arm circulation is also a big problem right now - I have a lot of issues at night with my fingers falling asleep to the point of it being very painful and waking me up and I have a hard time getting the feeling back.  I don't think that has anything to do with p90x, but is probably more of a wintertime thing & dehydration issue, but its still very bothersome.  I also have problems with one of my winter coats where the cuff on the wrist feels slightly tight and makes my right hand fall asleep.  


So combine all of that together and I'm just feeling discouraged by the whole thing.  My weight is not going down, although my clothes are fitting better and a friend of mine just dropped her daughter off and told me that I'm tiny.  So all of it together is making me feel blah.  So I'm feeling like maybe I should just run and count calories rather than do p90x, but then I only have 6 weeks left of p90x... I can do that.  I can do it, its just a matter of do I want to continue feeling this tired and sore all the time?  I don't know, I'm pretty crabby about it all today.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Monday November 14, 2011

Catchup since last Wednesday


Thursday - KenPoX
I switched out the normally scheduled yoga and did KenpoX instead.  I love Kenpo.  Its fun and it goes super quick.


Friday - Back & Legs
I enjoy back & legs, but I feel like I lost some strength during the recovery week because I wasn't able to do as many pullups as previous times.  I so rarely feel like my legs get a really decent workout, and this workout does it.


Saturday - stairs
I did not run on Friday because I knew I was doing the stairs the next day.  


The Tieri's came for the weekend and I brought Jason to the stairs on Saturday morning.  It was awesome - I love the stairs!  Its such an awesome workout and its really different.  I want to incorporate it in some more, just not sure how.  This was the first time I've done the stairs with someone and it was fun to talk while we did it.  And it was fun to kick his butt on the last set of running :)  


Today - Monday - P90x Shoulders/Triceps/Shoulders
Ugh, this is so hard!  There are so many slow and weird pushups in this workout, my arms are still really, really tired and it has been almost 6 hours since I did the workout.  I also ran for 30:00 / 2.75 miles right afterward.  My heart rate was around 174 at a pace of 5.5 or 10:54/mile.  I'm not thrilled with slowing down my pace so much, but I had to remind myself that I was running in order to condition my cardiovascular system, not as a training or distance thing.  


Ate a lot of garbage food this weekend - pizza, candy, chicken wings, cake.  My weight WAS down to 126.6 on Saturday, but this morning was back up to 128.0, which is actually not too bad given how much junk I ate.  I'm kind of thinking about counting calories instead of doing weight watchers points.  Jason said that it works really well for him.  I don't know why it is so different for me and why I hate the calories vs. doing the points.  Maybe I could do it without having to enter everything into the computer - I could keep a running total on paper, like I do with points.  Maybe that would work.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Wednesday November 9, 2011

Workout: P90x Back & Biceps / Run 2 miles


Back & Biceps...  I hate biceps.  I really, really hate doing bicep exercises.  I'm not sure why, I just hate them.  I love back exercises, so I guess this makes for a good workout for me.  It was fine...  I struggle the first time through any of these videos, so next week it will be better.


After finishing, I went downstairs and ran 2 miles.  I did't have time to do more than that because I had to get the girls on the bus, but 2 miles was enough today - my back was especially tired from the P90x workout and I could feel that while I was running.  I backed my speed down to 10:30/mile and my heart rate was at 180 bpm instead of mid 180's.  So maybe I need to just back my speed way down until I can run comfortably and then gradually increase it.  Ugh - that sounds pretty hellish.  I think I'm going to ask for a heart rate monitor for christmas.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Tuesday November 8, 2011

Workout: P90x PlyometriX


Ugh, back to the plyometrix.  Its so hard that I want to stop and cry sometimes.  But I'm so happy I did it when its over.  Its a great workout, I'm dripping with sweat, my hair is soaked and I know I worked hard.  


And as I've said before: I'm so happy its done and over with on Tuesday!  

Monday, November 7, 2011

Monday November 7, 2011

Workout: Run 3 miles


Not getting any easier, but I'm not going to give up.  Right now, though, I'm spent!  I just want to curl up on the couch and watch Cake Boss with the girls, lol!  


One thing that keeps me going is knowing that I've done this before - I've started from scratch and I've gotten into good condition and I've run 13 miles without a break.  I've done it.  I can do it again, I just need to keep conditioning and training.  While I'm not ready to train for a race yet, I CAN work on my cardiovascular conditioning while I'm also allowing Tony Horton to kill me with strength training.

Monday November , 2011

Workout: P90x Chest, Shoulders, Triceps


New workout this morning - I hate it when they're new - I fall behind because I don't know what I'm doing.  My arms are pretty much achy and tired right now.  Not sure what I thought about this one...  I do feel like I was pretty weak in my ability to do (or not do) pushups.  I felt really, really not strong this morning.


I'm going to try to get a run in this afternoon and make today a 2-a-day.  I don't want to kill myself with all of this, but I'm really disturbed and frustrated with my lack of cardiovascular ability and want to get some conditioning in throughout the week.  So I'm going to try to get a running workout in on the days that p90x is weight training.  So I'm thinking my schedule will look like:

M - Chest/Shoulders/Tris + 30:00 run

T - Plyometrics
W - Back & Biceps + 30:00 run
Th - Kenpo (switching kenpo & yoga due to time)
F - Legs & Back + 30:00 run
S - Yoga 


It might be kind of crappy, but I'm going to try to do it.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Friday November 4, 2011

Catchup for the last 3 days...


Wednesday
Workout: P90x KenpoX


Did this workout in the morning with Dave and it will never, ever happen again!  I've already told him this:)  He is so out of sync with Tony and the crew and I could see it out of the corner of my eye and I.can't.stand.it!!!  He comes by his rhythm naturally.  He is, after all, his mother and father's son.  I love him, but I cannot do this workout with him ever again, unless he get super awesome at it in the next 2 months!  We had a good laugh over this last night.


Thursday
Workout: run 3 miles at a 10:00/mile pace


Was supposed to do YogaX, but the alarms never went off.  I wasn't planning to do Yoga anyway - I had already decided to try to run again.  Since I didn't wake up early enough, I ran at 5pm.  It wasn't a whole lot better than Monday.  My heart rate was still mid-180's.  I gutted it out to 15:00 solid minutes of running before taking a 2:00 walking break.  It really becomes much more of a mental battle...  running at that high of a heart rate is like a normal person sprinting as fast as they can for 15 straight minutes.  Its impossible to sustain, but mentally I battle through it.  It hurts...  nothing really HURTS - like my lungs aren't burning, my legs feel totally fine, nothing hurts, it is just really, really painful to try to sustain running at that high of a heart rate.  I need to keep adding the running so I can condition myself back to a more comfortable place.  Still frustrated about this, but I want to be able to run, so I'm going to have to have a couple of days/week of 2-a-days.  We'll see how that works out.


Friday - 
Workout: Core Synergistics


This was much better than the other day when I did it the first time.  I knew what the exercises were and I knew how to do them.  I performed them better, but it wasn't as if it was easier.  This is just a tough, tough workout.  Can't say I'm sad to see it omitted from the rotation next week!


Weight on Friday: 127.4
Again, happy with a 1lb loss from last week.  This is just how it goes - I certainly wish it were 4lbs/week, but thats just not going to happen:)  My clothes feel better and thats most important.  I still believe I'm retaining a significant amount of water because I'm having so much trouble with my hands during the night.  Waking up several times a night with a completely numb right hand.  

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Tuesday November 1, 2011

Workout: P90x Core Synergistics


Wow.  So really, Tony?  THIS is recovery week?  Whatever, dude!


Core Synergistics.  Ouch - this is by far the hardest workout so far, in my opinion.  Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I never, ever, ever work on my core/abs.  So this was tough.  It is a bunch of exercises that engage many muscles at the same time, mostly the core stabilizing muscles.  There were a few exercises that I simply couldn't complete because I'm weak.  And there were a few than I just said "screw it" on because I was so exhausted.  I know that when I do it next time, I'll be better, because I will have done it once already - Tony does not demonstrate the moves before kicking off the timer, he just goes into them, so I have to watch him first and then do it... missing out on a few reps each time.


Yesterday was trick-or-treating.  I usually begin a freefall of gluttony on the day of Halloween.  In normal years, I will have already consumed large quantities of candy corn throughout the month and then while trick or treating with the girls I throw all self discipline out and eat candy while we walk, and then have more after they go to bed.  This kicks of several weeks of eating 3-4 pieces every night before bed and maybe 1 or 2 during the day.  Leading right into Thanksgiving, where I give up complete control for the 4 day weekend, which is followed closely by biscotti mania for the next 6 weeks.  At that point I find it difficult to not give in to my intense desire for a treat with my morning coffee - and homemade biscotti fills that roll perfectly.  I start out having one each morning and pretty soon it is 2-3 each morning.  Add all of that to the mass quantities of butter and chocolate that pass the threshold of the house during Christmas and I find the scale to say I weigh 7lbs more than before halloween.  It happens every year.  Then I spend the next few months working it off.


I'm very happy with myself today, because I resisted candy corn all month.  I have eaten about 15 pieces total - and that was a tiny handful on Sunday afternoon.  With my candy-resisting confidence brimming over, I also resisted all trick or treat candy yesterday - while trick or treating and afterward.  I knew that once I started, I wouldn't stop.  I feel like I can now get through the next 3 weeks to Thanksgiving without getting out of control.  I am living self-discipline right now and that always makes me feel really, really good about myself.  Congratulations to me!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Monday October 31, 2011

Workout: Run 3 miles (30:57)


Today begins the p90x recovery week.  I was supposed to do Yoga this morning, but I really didn't feel like getting out of bed that early, so I opted to run instead.  I'm not sure if that is Tony Horton/p90x approved strategy for recovery, but too bad. 


Running was horrible.  Actually I felt okay, but my heartrate was sky-high.  After 1 mile my heart rate was 186.  Obviously, I'm not getting enough cardio training in while doing the p90x, because that is way too high.  It is not even slightly maintainable for very long.  And I wasn't running very fast - 10:00/mile.  I stopped to walk for 1:30/2:00 a couple of times, and my heartrate would come down, but it would go right back up there when I ran for longer than a minute.  Its pretty discouraging, because I want to run and I enjoy running, but the high heartrate makes it nearly impossible to use running as a once in a while cardio workout... I feel like I have to give it up altogether, or I have to run several times a week consistently.  Not sure if want to do either of those any more.  Right now I'm not ready to train for a race, but was thinking of training for one after the New Year... however, with that high of heart rate problems, it makes me dread doing it, because it hurts to be working at that intensity for too long.


So maybe I'm going to have to consider adding some running into my p90x.  Like maybe doing a second workout a couple of times a week.  I'll have to think that through, because I don't know if I want to go that route.  I guess I need to really sit down and consider my goals and whether 2x/daily workouts would be needed.  I don't know... I'm just really bothered by how difficult it is for me to run and why it seems so effortless for anyone else - like most people can take time off for a while and then just go out there and run 3-4 miles, no problem.  I think Dave could do that - he hasn't run consistently for several months, but I'm pretty sure that if he wanted to he could go out and run 3 miles without a problem.  I really hate that it is so incredibly difficult for me... and that if I take any kind of break, then it is so hard and painful to get back.


For the last several days, I've thought about going out for a run down my 5 mile route.  The weather has been nice, the route is really pretty at this time of year, I remember loving that run.  But I can't just pick it up so easily and that bugs the crap out of me.


My weight was the same on Saturday - no gain/loss.  I guess thats fine, but I do think that I was retaining some water because my hands are falling asleep a lot lately.  So hopefully, I will make up for it this week and see a loss.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Tuesday October 25, 2011

Workout: P90x PlyometriX


Ugh, plyometrix is so hard.  And its supposed to be - high impact jump training.  I sweat so much during this workout and breathe so hard.  But its good.  And I'm so thankful that it is on Tuesday and I get it over with in the beginning of the week rather than having to look forward to it later in the week when my body is tired.


So this is the last week of the regular p90x schedule before a week of recovery.  I'm looking forward to the recovery week - I don't think its going to be a cakewalk, but more cardio and stretching and less muscle training.  And NO plyometrix for a week!

Felt like complete crap yesterday.  Woke up feeling more stuffed than yesterday, but less sinus pressure, which is better.  No nausea this morning and feeling decent right now.

Have I mentioned: no plyometrix for 2 weeks?

Monday, October 24, 2011

Monday October 24, 2011

Workout: P90x Back & Chest




Ugh, felt like crap when I woke up this morning.  I've had a tickle in my throat for over a week and would have coughing fits starting at 7:45 every night and sometimes in the middle of the night.  Other than that tickle/cough, though, I had no other issues.  This morning I woke up with postnasal drip and was nauseous.  I got up and got going, though, because this is the time of year where the house is dry and mornings suck.  I have not felt any better yet. I fought nausea throughout the entire workout.  So far today, I've been stuffed up, my ears hurt and I want to eat anything and everything (because I'm sick and don't have the energy to exhibit will-power).  I've been good and haven't been eating everything, but its a mental struggle.


Workout was good even while feeling sick.  I did more pushups on each set than I did last week, which is awesome.  To see progress is really encouraging.  I think I finally got the hang of the pullup situation - not that I've done even one pullup or chinup without the support of the chair, but I'm working on it.  Hopefully by the end of these three weeks I'll be able to do at least 1!


This afternoon I've given up on being productive.  I feel like crap, so I've camped out in front of the tv and am watching bad tv and trying to get more world series tickets.  Its gorgeous outside today, too, so booooo about all of this!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Friday October 21, 2011

Workout: P90x Legs & Back
Weight: 128.6


I'm happy with the 1 lb loss this week.  I can't expect much more than that, so I'm good.  I love watching the Biggest Loser, but I hate that it seems normal to lose 4-15 pounds in a week.  Totally not normal.


Workout was good this morning.  He really kills your legs - totally burns them out.  And the pull ups, too.  Ugh, my arms are jelly this morning.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Thursday October 20, 2011

Workout: P90x Yoga
Weight: ?


Yeesh its been a while.  Took some time off from working out and calorie counting and then hit it hard last Monday - October 10th.  Dave and I started doing p90x that day and also started nazi Weight Watchers.  I weighed 133.0 on Monday October 10, 2011.  Last Friday - October 14th I weighed 129.6.  I weigh in again tomorrow morning...


First - p90x:
I'm loving it!  I was hesitant to try it because I really didn't want to workout in front of the tv every single morning, I didn't think I had a way to work on pullups, and I didn't know if I could stomach Tony Horton for 3 months.  I'm pleasantly surprised on all accounts.

I am working out in front of the upstairs tv, not the basement, so its not so dark and dreary.  In addition, it is a different workout every day, so I'm not doing the same.exact.thing. every day for 3 months solid (like the Biggest Loser dvds).  I found one doorway in the house that works for the pullup bar, so I've got that figured out.  And so far I've been pretty amused by Tony.  However, it has only been just short of 2 weeks.  
Dave is doing the workouts with our friend Matt in the evenings.  I think its great for both of them.  


All in all, I love it.  I'm so happy that plyometrics is on Tuesday and not on Saturday!  I would hate to have to look forward to that all week because it kicks my butt!  


Weight Watchers - 
After seeing my weight go up past 130, I knew I had to do something hard core and counting calories was not working for me.  I'm not sure why there is such a difference, it just sucks the life out of me.  I also got a WW points calculator for both of us.  It calculates how many points I get in a day and the extra weekly points, and it also calculates the points values of foods based on the protein, carbs, fat & fiber in the food.  I bought Dave the general food guide and the restaurant guide, and he says those things are helping him a lot.  I think that for two people who do not have smart phones the whole online point or calorie counting thing was exhausting.  We have little journals that we keep track in and can also keep track in the calculators.  So it has been going better.  I still get a little bitter that I only get 29 points a day, but I make it work.


Today - 
Today's workout was yoga.  It was tough.  I've lost a lot of strength in the last couple of months of letting everything go, so my endurance for all of these poses is less.  


I have to get these pounds off because I don't fit into my jeans!  I'm not upset about the gain...  I see it as a result of having a good, fun summer.  I also recognize that I had a lot of emotional garbage going on this summer and I don't think I had the mental energy to deal with that and be super vigilant about eating and exercising.  I'm finally at a point, though, where I feel like I can deal with both... well, I can at least get myself back into some discipline with taking care of myself physically.  Emotionally and psychologically is still a work in progress and I'm not sure what I'm going to do about that.  At any rate, I just need to be diligent and patient and get these 10 pounds off so I can fit back into my jeans... wearing yoga pants and cargo pants every other day is getting a little old :)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Wednesday August 31, 2011

Workout: 45:00 elliptical


Woke up this morning and wanted to cut my legs off.  My quads hurt so badly from doing the stairs yesterday.  I want to cry.  I have so many sets of stairs in my house - 3 to go from the family room to the kitchen, 1 to go from the front room to the foyer, 2 to go from the dining room to the front room, 10 to go from dining room to the bedrooms, 13 to go from family room to the basement.  Ouch, ouch, ouch.  I'm always stepping up or down somewhere.


Dave ran 2 1/2 miles yesterday and then did 10 sets of stairs.  Jerk.


Todays elliptical workout was fine.  I just never feel like I'm actually working out on the elliptical.  My heart rate was 140's - 150's the whole time, so I know I'm getting it up there, but it never feels hard.  I also did shoulders and triceps.  All in all, good morning at the gym - glad to be back at it.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Tuesday August 30, 2011

Workout: Swallow Cliff Stairs - 36:00


Here's me once every few months: "I'm bored with my workouts, I'll just go do the stairs.  la di da di da"


Here's me while I'm going up the stairs the 2nd time the next morning: "I don't think I'm going to make it to 10."


I ALWAYS forget what a hard workout the stairs are.  Its a great workout, but it is killer hard and I'm going to be sore tonight and tomorrow.  Its good, good, good.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Monday August 29, 2011

Workout: 40:00 on the elliptical
Weight: 128.8


Went to the gym with Carissa this morning.  It was SO good.  Just so nice to do a hard workout and to catch up with her after a summer of hardly seeing her.  Did the interval program on the elliptical and notice my heart rate stayed up in the 150's and 160's the whole time, which is good.


I need to figure out what I want to do in terms of working out.  I want to get back into running and I want to start lifting weights again and I want to start doing the stairs again.  I might do the stairs in the afternoon so that I don't have to be there in the dark... still thinking about that one.


Still have to do pushups today.  I finally passed Week 3 Day 3 and am moving on - thank goodness!


Diet has been good.  Have been counting calories and entering them in myfitnesspal.com, which is an awesome site because it has aldi food in its database.  Dave and I have been drinking green smoothies and I'm tweaking them to get the calorie amount down.  I cut out 60 calories in my morning beet smoothie by eliminating the date.  It is still really good - I love them and I love how many vegetables and greens I'm getting everyday.  I feel like I'm eating really well right now.  Last Monday I weighed 133, today I weighed 128.8.  I know a lot of that was water weight, but I'm going in the right direction.  Hoping to lose a couple more pounds before we leave for vacation next Friday.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Tuesday August 23, 2011

Workout: walking with the dog 40:00
Weight: ugh


Since coming home from vacation my body has been jacked up.  I must have really wrenched my back when we were tubing on that Monday.  The next day my herniated disks were bothering me, but they got better throughout the day.  By the time we got home, though, I was in desperate need of a deep tissue massage - my back hurt everywhere and I was having pretty bad headaches from muscle tension in my neck.  The massage helped and I felt better over the next two weeks.  I ran on the treadmill during the week, but nothing major.  


Last Friday I started running on the treadmill and I could tell my disks were not going to allow me to do it.  I walked for a mile and then decided I was okay and did 1 minute intervals.  And I've been paying for it since then.  I haven't been able to stand up from a chair without being in severe pain, I took expired hydrocodone, which takes the edge off a bit.  I can say, though, that yesterday and today have been better.  Yesterday I started an every 4 hour ibuprofin regimen and it seems to help a lot (haven't taken the hydrocodone since Saturday).  This morning was the first time I got out of bed without feeling like I was going to crumble to the floor.


So yesterday and today I've walked the dog as my workout.  It isn't much, but its something.  I need to be gentle with myself so I don't re-tweak it before vacation.  


My weight is higher than it has been since losing my Georgia pregnancy weight.  I gained a little on vacation, but was higher than I'd like before we left.  Then we came home and started drinking green smoothies - which are awesome - but I found out yesterday that they are higher calorie than I realized... so hence the couple of pounds I've gained since coming home from vacation.  Yesterday I counted calories and it wasn't horrible.  I'm pretty serious about it now - school has started, i'm getting back into a routine, I can do this.  I have 3 weeks before we leave and that gives me enough time to get back down to 124ish.  I am suspicious of my scale, though, because at the weight it is saying, none of my clothes should fit - and they don't feel any different.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Monday August 1, 2011

Workout: running 45:00, waterskiing, tubing, walking in water


On vacation with my whole family - parents, sister & family - up at a cottage in northern Michigan.  Got here yesterday and did a little waterskiing.  This morning was GORGEOUS so I went running for 45 minutes, which was really hard.  I stopped a lot to walk.  Spent the afternoon waterskiing and tubing with the kids.  Total blast for day 1 and every part of my body is tired - hands, arms, legs, back.  sooooo tired. 

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Saturday July 30, 2011

Workout: 3.0 miles on the treadmill
pace: 6.0/10:00
(also ran 3.5 miles on Thursday)


Really had wanted to run 6 miles today, but didn't get up in time to do it.  Busy day today because we're leaving for a week tomorrow morning - and we have a graduation party this afternoon, so have to get everything ready and done by 3ish.  Could have run 6 if I had gotten up just a little earlier, but Dave and I have had a hard time getting up early this summer...  girls going to bed later, we go to bed later.  Oh well - it'll get better when school starts.


Didn't have the best run - stopped pretty early to get a drink of water... was running on an empty stomach right after waking up, so I didn't care.  I felt pretty sluggish in the beginning, so I knew it was going to be a mentally difficult run.  But I ran.  And thats what matters.


Thursday I ran 3 1/2 miles with stopping to take a break - first time I've done that since I stopped running in March.  I was extremely pleased with that.


Have not done pushups since Tuesday.  Just haven't been motivated to do it.  Vacation next week - not sure if we'll have room to pack running clothes & not sure if I'll feel like doing pushups.  We'll see.  Mike is killing it with the pushups, so maybe he will be motivating enough for me.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Tuesday July 26, 2011

Workout: 3.25 miles on the treadmill
pace: 6.0/10:00


Slept in again this morning until 7:30.  Feels so good.  Didn't feel like doing anything different, but still wanted to get a workout in today so I ran again.  It was hard for the first mile, but I pushed through 5+ complete songs and ran 2.25 miles straight before I stopped to get a drink of water.  Stepped off for a total of 40 seconds, then ran the last mile without breaks, too (total mileage was 3.25 miles + 1 minute to make up for the step off).  No fan again, so I'm pouring sweat again.


Did pushups yesterday:
22+30+20+20+(22+2+4) = 120 total pushups
2 minutes between sets

crap these are hard.
 


At least my max set went up this time (to 22) instead of down like it has been doing.  My upper back is very tired today.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Monday July 25, 2011

Workout: 3 miles on the treadmill
Pace: 6.0/10:00


Had a bad hydration weekend.  Pretty much didn't drink any water.  Add to that the beginning of my period and I feel like a gigantic whale.  Ugh... so I'm going to try to hammer the water today to get rid of some of the bloaty feeling.  I hate feeling bloated.  So running kind of sucked this morning in the beginning.  I didn't think I was going to make it through a mile, but I ended up persevering and pushed myself through 5 songs/19:40 before stopping to get a drink of water (wish I had checked the time/mileage before hopping off so I could have run 2 complete miles).  And at that point i also realized that Dave never brought my fan home from the office, so I'm basically still pouring sweat right now.  


I should do pushups tonight.  I've had a few days off from them - my max number was declining each attempt, so I thought maybe a break was in order.  I'll try again tonight.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Friday July 22, 2011

Workout: Lap swim 30:00
# of laps: 40 lengths/20 full laps


Ahhh the boys swim team was not there this morning and I felt so much better :)  I still feel like kind of an idiot even with just the high school life guard sitting there watching.  I'm so out of my element - I have no idea what I'm doing or what is normal and I'm not good and have to rest and I can't keep my goggles from getting fogged up.  But I do it and its a good work out and ultimately that is all that matters.


I swam 10 lengths of breast stroke before taking a short rest to check my time.  Then swam two lengths of back stroke.  I repeated that 3 times and then did a final 4 lengths of breast stroke to finish at 40 lengths.  My full time was 31:14.


I tried to do a front crawl at one point and I don't think I even made it halfway through one length before I switched back to breast stroke.  It was so difficult and I was gasping for breath - i couldn't continue.  So I guess front crawl is definitely out unless i can get some time in a friend's pool to practice it a little more.


Right now I'm definitely feeling very fatigued, physically.  My upper body is tired.  I can feel a tension headache wanting to bust through, my right tricep, forearm, wrist and hand are aching.  The pool is closed for the next 3 weeks.  I enjoy it, but that forced break is going to give me some time to evaluate and try to figure out what kind of swimming/running schedule I want to do.  Not sure what a good mix will be.


Weighed myself this morning after 2 weeks of weight watchers.  I'm slightly pissed about it.  I hate dieting.  I hate being hungry.  I have restricting myself.  I hate the fact that I have no options if we want to go out for dinner.  I hate that I have only 5 pounds to lose, but can't seem to take it off.  Either I'm not doing something right, or I'm not willing to do what is necessary.  I have a hard time believing I'm eating too much - I'm sticking to my points every day.  The only thing that could be an issue is that I eat a decent amount of fruit everyday - its all 0 points, but maybe its not a good idea to eat watermelon, cantaloupe, strawberries, nectarine & a banana all in one day?  I don't know.  very aggravated about it.  Maybe I should just be fat.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Wednesday July 20, 2011

Workout: 3 miles on the treadmill
Pace: 6.0/10:00


Even though I was struggling really hard against the beat of my music, I pushed myself to run for 4 songs before I stepped off to get a drink and turn the fan on.  I was pouring sweat, too, so it took a lot of determination to not step off to turn the fan on.


I should do pushups tonight, we'll see about that.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Tuesday July 19, 2011

Workout: lap swimming 30:00


I finally got to do some lap swimming and I loved it.  But it was HARD.  I wanted to quit after 6 minutes - and if I hadn't driven 20 minutes to get there and had to work up my courage to get into the pool to begin with (the high school boys swim team was working out), then I might have quit at that point.  I didn't think to count how many laps I did - I will next time.


I can only do breast stroke and back stroke.  I didn't dare attempt freestyle while all of those athletes were in the pool... would have looked like a complete idiot.  I've never been able to do the freestroke, but I want to learn - people look so effortless when they do it... just gliding through the water.


I had to stop to rest after every two pool lengths (not sure how many yards the pool is - 25?).  My heartrate was just as high as when i run.  I have to figure out how to just settle in and get through it - thats what I do when I'm running in order to get through the high heartrate.  Will definitely be a challenge.


I did pushups last night.  22+30+20+20+(22+4+2) = 120 total pushups with 2 minutes between sets.  These pushups are crazy, but I'm loving it!  I see strength gains already - the fact that I can do that set of 30 without breaking it up amazes me.  I love it!  I feel strong and fit.


I started counseling last night.  I have other issues that are more important to deal with, but I hope at some point to talk about body image and eating.  I may not have specific eating disorders anymore, but I'm certainly not free of body image and food related insecurities and problems.  

Monday, July 18, 2011

Monday July 18, 2011

Workout: 3.25 miles on the treadmill
Pace: 6.0/10:00


Run was hard in the beginning (breathing/heart rate) - wanted to jump off pretty quickly, but forced myself to make through 3 songs and at least a small part of the 4th.  After that I settled in really well and enjoyed myself.

I joined the LTHS wellness center today so I am going to start swimming laps tomorrow.  I'm VERY excited about it.

Pushups tonight.  Not so excited about that.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Saturday July 16, 2011

Workout: 6 miles on the treadmill
Pace: 6.0/10:00


Run went well.  I read my book again, but really focused on running continually and turning the pages while running, rather than taking a quick step-off to turn the page.  I did well until the end when I was getting tired - wasn't stepping off for every page turn, but was stepping off more frequently just to catch my breath.  I could feel my body was tired.

Thursday Dave and I got up and went for a walk with the dog in the morning before the girls work up.  It was nice.  The weather was beautiful and it was nice to go together.



Friday I went to the gym for the first time in many months and did the eliptical for 30:00.  Not a fan, but wasn't in the mood to do a dvd or to run.


I've been looking for a new gym or a way to add in some lap swimming.  Unfortunately, to join a gym with a pool would increase our monthly payment by $90-$100/month and I'm not ready to commit to that.  I think I'm going to join our high school's wellness center which is an annual membership of $125 for one person and is much more do-able.  The drawback is that it is 15 minutes away and its a sterile high school environment... these other gyms have nice, beautiful, comfortable locker rooms (mine doesn't, these other more expensive gyms) and they're extremely appealing to me :)  But while things have been better, financially, neither of us are comfortable adding that much additional monthly payment to our budget.  So I'm going to join the high school - I can't wait to swim laps!


Weight watchers went fine all week.  I basically hate everything about it.  I hate being hungry.  I hate not being able to eat normal food - I get 29 points/day.  A salad at corner bakery is 21 points.  So essentially, I can't ever go out for dinner and that ticks me off.  I said screw it last night and we went out for dinner and shared a bottle of wine, a cheese plate, some calamari and each had a cup of french onion soup & a dessert.  Sometimes I think I'd rather just be fat.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Wednesday July 13, 2011

Workout: 3 miles on the treadmill (30:00)
Pace: 6.0/10:00


Also ran this on Monday.  Yesterday I did level 2 & 3 of Biggest Loser Cardio Max.  By 7pm my legs were hurting and I'm still pretty sore this morning.


Did pushups on Monday and will need to do them today at some point.  I'm on week 3 Day 3 and its tough.  Took me 6 attempts to pass W3D2, so I don't assume I'll pass this one very quickly either.  I love it, though.  Its a fantastic upper body workout - I was pretty tired and sore when I woke up yesterday.  


I started Weight Watchers for real on Monday.  Got my graph paper back out and set it up so I can start coloring in squares.  As stupid as it sounds, that really works for me - keeping track on the computer does not.  It also helps me drink a good amount of water everyday.  


Weight Watchers has changed since the last time I did it, so now I get 29 points/day, but the point value of the food has increased in some cases, too.  Fruits and vegetables are all 0 points, which really works in my favor because I like to eat them - a lot.  I'm dealing with that constant hunger right now, though - usually lasts a week or two, so I just need to suck it up and get through it.  I also need to be good on the weekends, which really has been the main issue this summer.  Our summer is slowing down now in terms of get-togethers and parties, so hopefully the gorging will also slow down.  Weighed myself on Monday (128 - ouch) and will weigh again on Friday, but after that it will only be on Fridays.  I need to kick this in the butt right now - would love to be around 120 when we go on our cruise in September... 8 1/2 weeks to get there!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Saturday July 9, 2011

Workout: 6 miles on the treadmill
pace: 6.0/10:00


I have been sucking it up with working out this week.  I'm so emotionally drained right now, I can hardly function.  My house is a disaster and I just walk right by and leave it.  My laundry is behind and I just leave it in the baskets.  I haven't gotten up to workout at all this week.  I haven't gotten out of bed before 7am any day except Tuesday, when I ran three miles in the morning.  I have chaos going on around me and all i want to do is sit and read - I don't really even have anything compelling to read.  I just want to shut life out right now.


The girls have been emotionally draining.  Fighting constantly.  Whining about this thing and that thing not being fair.  I feel like my head is cloudy most of the time.


Anyway, Dave brought the girls to the office this afternoon... I took a step outside and realized that it was way to hot to run, so I jumped on the treadmill.  Knocked out 6 miles, which actually went by very quickly.  I feel good.  Feel better than I have.  Glad to be back to running.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Friday July 1, 2011

Workout: 3.18 miles running with the dog
Weight: 125.8


Started running again last weekend.  I went and got my gait analyzed and a good pair of running shoes - they are so cushy I feel like I'm walking on clouds :)  We were on our annual EJ summer regional trip last weekend, so I broke them in with a 3.5 mile run with Dave.  After not really running for 3 1/2 months, it was incredibly difficult, but I got through - with many walking breaks.


I ran my normal 3 mile route on Monday and again had to stop a lot to walk.  I ran without music so I could focus on my breathing, but I was laboring for most of it and pretty miserable.  I ran the same route this morning with the dog.  I figure as long as I suck and have to relearn how to run and regain some endurance, I might as well train him to run with me, too.  It was pretty humid - cool, but humid - this morning and he is really shaggy right now, so I took it easy and really let him stop quite a bit.  We ran well - I ran better than I did on Monday - but we did stop a lot.  We also walked the entire length of the second half of the running path (probably 1/4 mile) - I figured he'd be stopping a lot to sniff anyway, so it would probably work better if I let him walk and sniff that whole section.  He was also pretty hot and tired by then, so it gave him a bit of a break.  The last mile+ was tough for him - he was dragging behind me and clearly not amused by the situation.  Poor guy, I'm sure he was hot.


Also ran 4 miles on the treadmill on Wednesday.  It sucked.  I tried running at 6.0 and was only able to kind of do that for a mile, so I ran mostly at 5.5.  I can't believe that I used to run at a 2 % incline at 6.3.  Those days are long gone right now.


But, I'm glad to be back at it.  I feel good afterward.  So glad I got the new shoes.


Still haven't complete W3D2 of the pushups, but closer than ever before - have eked out 21 consecutive on that last set.  Need to work on those today again.  


Other than that I think I'm going to take it kind of easy this summer and try to run 3 days/week and do whatever else I feel like or can fit in until school starts in the fall.  I'm finding it rather difficult to get up before 6/6:30 because we're going to bed later because the girls are up later.  But I do hope I'm running better by the fall.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Wednesday June 22, 2011

Workout: 30 Day Shred Level 2


Figured I should probably do some updating up in these parts...


Have moved on to Level 2 of 30DS and it is a killer.  It is a lot of shoulder work and plank poses for abs & cardio.  I can't maintain the plank stuff during the cardio and abs - only because my shoulders are burning so bad I need to get out of the pose.  I really like level 2, though, its good.


Have continued with hundredpushups.com.  I'm stuck on week 3 day 2, but did well last night.  W3D2 sets are 20, 25, 15, 15, max (at least 25).  I can't get that last max set completed without taking a couple seconds of rest.  Last night I did the most I've done consecutively in that set though - 20 - and then finished it out after a short break.  Hoping I can move on soon, but W3D3 is going to be even worse.  I enjoy it - great workout and I'm getting noticeably stronger (by the fact that my numbers are increasing).  These workouts also contribute to being unable to do the plank stuff with 30DS.


I haven't run for a while.  Last week I tweaked my hamstring so bad I was limping, so I took the rest of the week off of working out.  This week, because Nora has basketball at 9, I've opted to just do the 30ds workout in the interest of time.  I went out and bought new running shoes the other night and look forward to going out this weekend at the summer regional - the first time since March.  I'm going to take it slow and go without music and focus on my breathing - noticed that when I consciously breathe using my diaphragm instead of my chest, my heart rate is lower.  Looking forward to getting out there and testing the new shoes.  


Dave began Weight Watchers this week.  I think I'll start today.  The girls sports schedules make it difficult for me to eat decently - I forget or I am gone when I should eat a meal, or I'm so hungry because of that that I eat bad stuff.  I need to grab some breakfast and get started on this WW thing.  Weight was up to 127.8... had gotten down to 122.2 a few weeks ago and then Memorial Day bbq at the in-laws happened and there was ice cream dessert with graham cracker crumbs and malt balls.  And really, who can say no to that?   I didn't - 3 or 4 times.  Ugh, sometimes I have 0 self control.  

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Tuesday June 7, 2011

Workout: 30DS + 2 miles
Friends: The One With The Engagement Pictures



Both workouts were fine.  I slept so great last night... and I didn't have to get up early to work out because it is summer break!  So I worked out at 7 - SO nice!  I think I would prefer to get started between 6 & 6:30, but I couldn't get myself out of bed that early this morning.  


Neck is still incredibly sore and stiff.  Dave massaged it last night and it didn't help at all.  I took some back pain pills this morning and it is still sore, but I can at least turn my head now. Hamster is still hanging on for dear life.  I've given him permission to go, but apparently he doesn't care about what I say.  Dave and I have gone round and round about what is the best thing to do for him - he wants to poison him, but I can't stand the thought of that.  So ultimately, he thinks it is more humane to allow him to die naturally in his own environment - where he is fed, watered, warm and safe.  I defer to him, because I can't stand the thought of intentionally killing an animal (costs $49 to have the vet do it!!!).  I think the stress of this situation is manifesting itself in my still, sore neck... so I need him to get on with it already!!!


Ran in shoes today.  Heart rate was slightly higher than when I run barefoot: 160ish bpm.  Still much lower than that 176 it was when I first started.  I think I'm doing the right thing by going slow.  Maybe by the fall I'll be able to run a decent pace again without wanting to kill myself the whole time.  


When I think back to the three years I spent trying so hard to be a runner, I know that I truly enjoyed running on very few occasions.  It was more a matter of sheer determination and will to accomplish what I wanted to accomplish.  A matter of pride in being able to tell people that I ran 5-12 miles.  A matter of obsession in burning calories or keeping to a training plan.  I started out with good motivation - wanting to run and enjoy it.  I had that very briefly until last summer when I became obsessive about it all.  I need to not be like that.  My family needs me to not be like that.  I am enjoying my workouts and my eating right now.  I'm not trying to lose weight, I'm trying to be healthy.  And truly, I don't NEED to lose weight... I'm good where I'm at.  I NEED to get my cholesterol lowered and to be in a place where I enjoy working out so I get the benefit of exercising everyday, but don't do it for fear that if I don't I'll get fatter.  I've been at this weight (although tend to gain 5lbs at christmas and then lose it in January) for 4 1/2 years, I think I can be confident that I no longer have to run away from those 15 pounds.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Monday June 6, 2011

Workout: 2 1/2 miles barefoot 
Yoga for Flexibility
push up challenge


Ugh, everything about me this morning was painful... waking up, back, shoulders, ankles, calves, shins.  I didn't sleep well at all last night - full night of tossing and turning & restlessness.  Hamster is dying and I felt like I was thinking about that all night.  Got up to workout at 5:50 because I was awake anyway.  


Running barefoot was fine.  I felt pain all throughout my lower legs - shins & ankles, but over time it dissipates and moves somewhere else.  Still interesting to realize how much more I can evaluate how I'm really feeling while I'm running, simply because I'm running slower & easier.  Heart rate was consistently in the upper 150's.  I"m going to stay at 5.0 this week yet and if it is still in the 150's, I'd like to move up to maybe 5.5 and see how that goes.


Pushup challenge was a challenge.  Sets were 14, 14, 10, 10, max (at least 15).  I maxed at 15 and that was a struggle.  I was struggling through the first set of 14.  Last week seemed pretty easy, this was pretty difficult.  


I did not do the entire Yoga dvd because I had such an incredible kink in my neck that I couldn't turn my head.  It was hurting pretty bad throughout my run, too.  I got through all of the sun salutations, but stopped after doing the hamstrings stretches at the end.  I really didn't cut that much out, I guess.  The sun salutations were also somewhat difficult this morning because my body was already tired and I had just exhausted my arms on the pushup challenge... downward dog takes a lot of arm strength and was hard to do this morning.


Better workout on the horizon tomorrow - hopefully a better night of sleep tonight. 

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Thursday June 2, 2011

Workout: 30DS + 2 1/2 miles
Friends: The One with The Proposal



Tired today.  And sore.  Debated about getting up - had quite the argument in my head before I finally got myself out of bed.  Ultimately, it is so much nicer to just be done and have it over with rather than trying to find time during the day to get a workout & shower in.  


30DS was fine.  I could tell my body was sore & tired while I was running though.  I ran 2 miles at 5.0 and then walked the last half of a mile because I was sick of it.


Calves are sore today.  Bottoms of my feet are still tender.  I like being sore in different places because I feel like I'm getting a different or better workout, so I like it that my calves are sore - they normally are not.  And they're sore on the inside of my leg, rather than the back.  Body. is. tired.


Had an interesting conversation over email with a friend yesterday.  She is the same height is me and weighs 155.  She, too, has been trying to lose weight by eating 6 small meals throughout the day.  She has had some initial success, but then it stopped.  Anyway, while going over things via email she says: Wait - do you see that you're 122???  Are you not getting that?  I mean is it the frustration of not being able to figure out how to lose those last couple of pounds? or are you seeing something in the mirror that doesn't match what is actually there?


Made me pause.  Here was my response:

    • Yes, I see that I'm 122! Believe me, its not lost on me! I"m happy with 122, but based on my body type, I wish I was slightly less... however, I've never been willing or able to get down past 119 and stay there. I'm just not willing to do what it takes, I guess. And I have to remind myself that no matter what my weight - 122, 110, 135, 145, I will always have the same body issues - just on a smaller or larger scale. I have big and long muscles but short distances from joint to joint (elbow to wrist / knee to ankle). So instead of being thin and lean, my long, big muscles look huge & I don't have those shapely calves/ankles that I would love to have and I feel like my arms look fat - even though I know I'm strong, it just doesn't translate. And I carry my weight in my hips and thighs... so while I have a small waist, which is awesome, my thighs always look huge. And finding jeans and shorts? Ugh - if they fit my thighs and butt, there is a gigantic gap in the waist. I need to have drawstring bottoms, but you can't find them very easily - when I do, I buy several in different colors. Anyway, all that to say - I'm definitely thrilled with 122, I guess I would - like you - like to be lean and fit with sexy definition! Just not sure that could ever happen for me. Based on that, though - I want you to tell me EVERYTHING those trainers tell you!!!!!! And I am so excited for you to do this - its going to rock! You're going to rock!

      I've had the same feeling so many times - I just want someone to fix me. Just tell me what to eat and exactly what to do and I'll do it. I'm so sick of trying to solve the puzzle! At the same time, I get frustrated with the cost and inconvenience of eating a plant based diet. I don't care what people say - it is NOT cheaper. And it is totally a pain in the ass to replenish produce every 3-5 days instead of grocery shopping once a week. But I think it is the most healthy way to eat, so I need to suck it up and get past that.