Sleep: bed at 11 with 2 advil pm, slept until alarm at 7am
We are home and I slept fairly well the rest of last week, although I did use advil pm to ensure that I would sleep. Christene does not want me to take these - and I 100% agree, however, if I had to be awake for 2 hours in the middle of the night while sleeping in a hotel with my family, I would have gone crazy (nowhere to go). And Saturday & Sunday I was just so incredibly exhausted that I couldn't handle the thought of not sleeping. But as of last night I won't be taking them - and I shouldn't have to because I'm home and in control of what I prepare and what I eat.
This morning I worked out for the first time in at least 6 weeks. I was going to start P90x, but I got up a little late and I was intimidated... a little worried about how sore I'll be after not having worked out for so long. Instead I did Jillian Michael's Yoga Meltdown, which was tough enough as it was.
I weighed myself this morning and braced myself for the weight that I've been for the longest time - around 128-130. I was 125.4. That is incredible. I have not been that low in a year at least. And I haven't been killing myself with my workouts, I haven't been counting calories, I've been eating incredible foods and enjoying them all. The only thing I miss is wine. I don't miss sweets, I don't miss grains, I don't miss anything else - just wine. So hopefully I'll be able to add that back in at some point.
Otherwise, I feel great. I've gotten a few nights of sleep. I enjoy my food. I enjoy not worrying about what I'm eating. I enjoy not feeling guilty about what I'm eating. I enjoy the freedom of the restrictions I have... I simply can't eat so many things that its more freeing - there are no mental gymnastics of "I really want that but I shouldn't eat it", there are no mental gymnastics of feeling guilty because I ate something I shouldn't have. I can eat all of the greens, vegetables, meat, berries, avocados, oil, etc that I want. That is actually a lot of food. I'm feeling great about all of this. And if I keep sleeping, I'll be even better!
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