Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Wednesday August 29, 2012

Workout: Run 3.17 miles
Weight: ?
One Year Ago

Ran this morning after getting Nora on the bus.  I kind of dig this new schedule :)  I get to run/workout from 7-8 now, rather than getting up at horrible times in the morning.  Its nice!

Run was okay.  I ran the first full mile without taking any breaks.  My left lower back was clenching up pretty badly, but I gutted through it.  I stretched at the water fountain... which usually helps make the second half of the run pain-free.  But not today.  Holy moly, my left lower back and left hip and outer thigh were burning.  I didn't have a very successful second half run.  I walked several times due to pain.  I'm wondering if I need new shoes?  I am proud of myself, though, for getting out there and for doing the first full mile (and a little more) without stopping to walk.  At this point in my out-of-shapeness, THAT is success.

While on vacation, Dave and I talked about how we're out of shape and have gained a little weight and the fact that we really need different motivation to be healthy.  Truly, I just don't want to be "that person" who is always gaining and losing the same 7 pounds.  And I have been for the last couple of years.  I just want to be healthy and live a healthy life - not just so I can weigh 125 lbs but for other reasons.  We listed our reasons and I want to revisit mine periodically.  Here they are:

I eat healthy, exercise and drink water because:
* I sleep better

* my skin is better
* i don't feel bloated and big
* my body will heal better and faster if I get sick or injured
* i don't want to be my parents
* i want to be active and not limited
* i don't want to take medications
* i feel more self-confident
* my back doesn't hurt

My mom has been very sick for the last year & a half.  She spent a good portion of the summer in the hospital this year.  I truly believe that a lot of it has to do with how poorly she eats and takes care of herself.  At least the extent to which she healed / is healing, I believe.  I don't want to be like that - I don't want the issues to begin with and I don't want to have the problems recovering that she has had.  I want to live a healthy life.

One thing that we identified that hinders us - or creates issues for us - is that we go to is parents house once a week or so - sometimes more often.  And they eat garbage all the time - never anything healthy.  So we have to come up with a plan to bring food with us, which, frankly, is a very overwhelming thought to me.  But we're going to have to do it.  

Hopefully these couple of things will be motivation for us to get back on track to living a healthy lifestyle and getting back into shape.  

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Tuesday August 28, 2012

Workout: 30DS level 1
Weight:?

Ugh, I am really out of shape.  I consistently worked out over the summer, but I really only ran 2-3 times each week, i think.  And it was all treadmill running because it was the most incredibly blasted hot summer in my life (temps in the mid 90s-100's for 5 weeks straight).  And I was running slowly and at 0 incline.

So when i went to run outside last week - for the first time in a few months - it was not pretty.  Or pleasant.  At all.  I sucked really bad.  I couldn't run a mile straight.  I walked a lot.  And I ended up running 3.17 miles in 40 minutes.  2 days later I ran the same route in 38 minutes, so a bit of an improvement, but still struggled throughout the entire run.  Soooo out of shape.

I did well with my weight throughout the summer until I went to Vegas in the middle of July.  We had a whole lot of delays the night we flew in and ended up not eating from 3pm our time until 2:30am our time... and the only things open were food court garbage.  And that set the course for the weekend of eating garbage - not a ton, but just crappy food.  And I came home at 131 (left at 126/127).  And I've struggled to get those pounds off.  We had vacation 2 weeks ago and ate ice cream every night.  Came home and weighed 133.  So now I'm back to where I was last summer, but not feeling quite as content about it.  I feel disgusting about myself - I don't feel good in my skin.  I don't feel confident at all.  

So last week (first week of school) I got back to eating super healthy - lots of plants, clean menu plan on e-mealz.  This week I started counting calories on mfp again.  

I really, really wish I could be doing P90x, but I have an injury inside my right elbow and I'm not sure I should be doing it.  I am running outside - 3 miles - and doing 30 Day shred 2 days a week and yoga 1 day.  I'm counting calories now, but next week I'm going to get serious about making sure I'm eating at regular intervals and meeting my calories (goal is 1600/day).   

I was flipping out about all of this yesterday because it seemed so overwhelming and like it would never happen, but then I was reminded while reading The Me I Want To Be, by John Ortberg, that its not in my control - nothing is in my control.  And that i don't need to do everything right now this very minute.  And i don't need to plan my life so far ahead - just worry about today and do what I need to do today.  Surrender my will, my health, my finances, my everything to jesus.  Let him worry about it - because no amount of worry is going to solve the problems I perceive that I have.

So here we go - mission is to get back into good running shape and to get back down to 125.  And to live today.