Workout: Chest/Shoulders/Triceps
Squats: 200
weight: 133.2
Press: 3x15 @ #5
Butterfly: 3x13 @ #4
Military Press: 3x9 @ #1
Reverse Fly: 3x13 @ #3
Press Downs: 3x14 @ #3
BB Press: 3x13 @ 30lbs
There are 6 weeks before my birthday. I am going to hit this hard for 6 weeks and see where I end up. Ideally, I'd like to lose 2lbs a week for a total of 12, which would bring me down to 121.1. I will be happy with a loss of 1 lbs per week for a total of 6 bringing me down to 127.2. Either way, I want to hit this hard core for a short time period and be done with it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of obssessing and trying to figure out what to do. It became clear to me over the last couple of weeks that I'm just incapable of making good choices on my own right now. I think my head is so screwed up from all this dieting over the last year... I need to bare down and be strict with myself for 6 weeks. So I'm going to track my food on weight watchers and on fitday.com. I'm a bit concerned that WW ultimately ends up being an unrealistically low number of calories every day - like 1000-1100. So I'm going to track in fitday also so I have a good idea of how many calories I'm consuming and how many I'm burning.
My biggest challenge, I believe, is going to be the weekends - and it always is. I've got it in my head that I don't need to count points over the weekend - because that is how I did it before and it worked. But that just isn't working for me anymore. I think if I hadn't done BFL/BFFM for so long maybe it would, but after viewing the weekend as FreeDay and eating whatever I want in whatever quantity I want it has messed up my head. This is where I need to really get with it and be serious about this.
I don't know what my ultimate goal is. I want to eat healthy and make healthy choices and I believe I need some rigorous training in that regard right now. I don't necessarily care about the actual weight number - I just don't want to be uncomfortable in my jeans like I was on Thursday. My head is really messed up and I'm not sure how to get it back on straight.
