Beginning Date: January 7, 2008
Ending Date: March 30, 2008
Total miles: 19 miles
Total squats: 3000
Workout: Treadmill
Distance: 2.5 miles
Time: 30:00
Speeds: 4.0/5.3/6.3
Woke up late this morning and only got 30 minutes of running in rather than 45. So 2.5 miles instead of 3.6. I'm okay with that. On days like this I'm glad that I got up and did something rather than excused myself to lay in bed and do nothing (my back is wrenched from shoveling snow yesterday). Did my 100 squats after running. Done.
I didn't count points yesterday. Part of the problem is that I still have too much superbowl food in the house. I hate that. And I hate that I have a hard time resisting it. I don't have a problem with binging on it, but I have a taste here or there throughout the day. Then I feel guilty about it. I think one thing that I need to end is the guilt. Seriously - do I need to feel guilty for eating an apple or a banana? That what it comes down to when dieting... I should be able to eat fruit without feeling like I just wrecked my day. In fact, I should add more fruit to my day. And more veggies. But feeling guilty about eating them has got to go.
I need to revamp my thinking about food/health. I need to stop viewing food as the calories/points/carb/protein content. Start looking at it as fuel and healthy or not healthy. And simply make good choices.
I'm going to try to cultivate some new habits:
* Drink tons of water throughout the day - even on the weekends. I want to drink at least 1 16oz glass of water before every meal and between any meals. Ideally, I would like to drink a glass of water first before grabbing anything to eat. I find that usually when I am craving something or my mouth feels like I need to eat something it is more because I'm dehydrated and thirsty, rather than hungry or actually craving something. It is more a feeling I have in my mouth, which is why I end up grabbing a bite of something or a snack - I need to be aware of that and drink instead. AND I need to be proactive and drink lots and lots of water throughout the day so I don't get that feeling to begin with.
* Eating slower. If I really sit down and think about it, I'm not sure I truly taste my food. I think I enjoy texture and some of the flavor, but I don't savor food and I don't taste all of the flavors. I usually eat while doing something else - reading, mostly - which means I'm not focusing on the food, my hunger, my satisfaction, etc. I want to work on eating smaller portions, putting my fork/spoon down between each bite, concentrating on the flavor of the food in my mouth.
These are things that are not very natural for me and I'm going to have to really work hard to turn them into habits. I want to drink a ton of water without coloring squares on graph paper - I want it to just be part of life - like working out is. I think it is essential for me to change the way I view food - I have three little girls who are observing me and learning from me. If I am constantly turning away food because it is too many points, too many carbs, etc, then I am teaching them poor habits. I need them to see me making healthy choices all the time. They already ask me if the food they are eating is healthy - I think that is good and I'm glad they ask those questions. I want them to lead healthy lifestyles where they don't get obssessed over weight or their bodies. I need to model that for them, too.
