Monday, August 12, 2013

Day 29 - Monday August 12, 2013

Sleep: bed at 11 with 2 advil pm, slept until alarm at 7am

We are home and I slept fairly well the rest of last week, although I did use advil pm to ensure that I would sleep.  Christene does not want me to take these - and I 100% agree, however, if I had to be awake for 2 hours in the middle of the night while sleeping in a hotel with my family, I would have gone crazy (nowhere to go).  And Saturday & Sunday I was just so incredibly exhausted that I couldn't handle the thought of not sleeping.  But as of last night I won't be taking them - and I shouldn't have to because I'm home and in control of what I prepare and what I eat.

This morning I worked out for the first time in at least 6 weeks.  I was going to start P90x, but I got up a little late and I was intimidated...  a little worried about how sore I'll be after not having worked out for so long.  Instead I did Jillian Michael's Yoga Meltdown, which was tough enough as it was.  

I weighed myself this morning and braced myself for the weight that I've been for the longest time - around 128-130.  I was 125.4.  That is incredible.  I have not been that low in a year at least.  And I haven't been killing myself with my workouts, I haven't been counting calories, I've been eating incredible foods and enjoying them all.  The only thing I miss is wine.  I don't miss sweets, I don't miss grains, I don't miss anything else - just wine.  So hopefully I'll be able to add that back in at some point.  

Otherwise, I feel great.  I've gotten a few nights of sleep.  I enjoy my food.  I enjoy not worrying about what I'm eating.  I enjoy not feeling guilty about what I'm eating.  I enjoy the freedom of the restrictions I have... I simply can't eat so many things that its more freeing - there are no mental gymnastics of "I really want that but I shouldn't eat it", there are no mental gymnastics of feeling guilty because I ate something I shouldn't have.  I can eat all of the greens, vegetables, meat, berries, avocados, oil, etc that I want.  That is actually a lot of food.  I'm feeling great about all of this.  And if I keep sleeping, I'll be even better!

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Day 24 - Wednesday August 7, 2013

We've been on vacation since last Friday.  We drove down to Destin, FL and left at 6:00am friday morning.  We drove 8 hours to Nashville, stopped and went to the zoo and had dinner with our friends, then continued on to Birmingham, AL.  Left again on Saturday morning and got to Destin around 4:30 pm.  We packed a cooler of food and I stayed on target the entire time.  Saturday night was a group dinner buffet and I again stayed on target and felt comfortable that I was not eating gluten.  I slept decently Friday and saturday nights - I took Advil PM just to make sure.  I slept through the nights both nights, but didn't feel super rested either night.

Sunday night I stayed on target throughout the day and thought I did at dinner, too.  We had seafood at a local restaurant - scallops, crab & fish.  Although I told the waiter that I needed my food to be gluten free, I perceived him to shrug me off and kind of roll his eyes.  There must have been some kind of gluten in the seasoning on the fish & the scallops because I was up at 3:30 again (even with the Advil PM) and didn't get back to sleep until 5:30/6:00.  We had to get up early to be at breakfast and a meeting on monday morning so I didn't have a chance to sleep any later.

Monday I again stayed on target throughout the day.  And again woke up over night: 3:00-5:??.  For dinner we had a group dinner at the Gulfarium.  We had burgers, hot dogs, pulled pork, chicken.  I ate a hamburger, a hot dog and some pulled pork (I was told that there was no bbq sauce on it).  In retrospect, i think i should have skipped the pulled pork - you just never know what it is seasoned with.  So, fail on my part.

Tuesday, again on target (we have a full kitchen so I went and bought the groceries that I needed so I could eat the same here as I do at home).  For dinner we went to a restaurant called Calahan's.  The waiter was very helpful and attentive to my gluten issue.  I had grilled pork chops, vegetables and a side salad with oil & vinegar.  I didn't take the advil pm last night because it wasn't helping anyway.  I woke at 2 and fell back to sleep around 3:15 and slept until 6:45.  I tried to go back to sleep but it wasn't going to happen.  I don't feel horrible this morning, but I certainly don't feel rested.

I understand that we are on vacation and I can only control so much when we're eating food prepared by other people.  The restaurants here do not seem to be allergen sensitive - they do not have gluten free menus or gluten free items on their menus.  I'm trying my best to not get discouraged or upset, however, it is somewhat upsetting that it feels like I have to eat absolutely perfectly or i will suffer at night.  I don't want to go to bed anymore.

I will continue to do what I'm doing and hope for the best during the rest of this week.

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Day 17 - Wednesday July 31, 2013

Sleep: bed by 11, up at 3:30, took 10 mg of Melatonin, back to sleep until alarm at 6.  Should have slept later.

Christene and I emailed back and forth on Monday about all of this stuff.  She is so reassuring and inspires so much confidence and hope in me.  She told me that I WILL enjoy normal food and wine again.  It may take a while, but it will happen.  She suggested that I start taking an anti-fungal, so I went out and bought that.  She also told me that it takes 27 days for yeast loving food to get out of our system... after that the die off will occur.  So Day 1 was Monday because of Sunday.  

She acknowledges that it is difficult to eat perfectly on vacation and told me to do what I can to plan for not sleeping well - take the melatonin with me, plan for down time on a couple of afternoons, etc.  I think that is good advice, however, I plan to continue to eat properly - I am so sick of sleep being an issue, I want this stuff kicked as soon as possible.  I can do this.

I'm getting better and better at planning for my day and bringing food with me.  Yesterday we picked blueberries with my in-laws and I brought a salad with a piece of salmon, and a dish of cucumber/tomato salad.  I was totally fine.

So yesterday's food:

morning: 1 c. coffee

Breakfast: giant breakfast salad - organic greens & spinach / garlic / red onion / cherry tomatoes / 2 fried organic, free-range eggs / 1/4 avocado.  20 oz of lemon water.

Lunch: salad - organic greens & spinach / red onion / cherry tomatoes / 1T (or less) of greek olive vinegrette + leftover salmon filet.  Cucumber-tomato salad: cucumbers, tomatoes, yellow pepper, jalepeno, red onion, garlic, little bit of white balsamic vinegar, 1/4 avocado.

Dinner: Salad - organic greens & spinach / red onion / cherry tomatoes / greek olive vinegrette.  1 wild caught alaskan salmon filet (grilled with coconut oil, salt & pepper).  1 c. of brussel sprouts roasted in chili infused olive oil, S&P.  20 oz lemon water.

Snacks: a billion blueberries


Weight today: 128.8

Monday, July 29, 2013

Day 15 - Monday July 29, 2013

A letter to my health coach - explains it all for today:

Hi Christene –

You mentioned the other day on the phone that you want to see how I do on a super clean diet.  The answer is: I sleep through the night entirely with no waking at all. 

We talked on the phone on Wednesday and I eliminated all sources of sugar from my diet on Thursday, with the exception of berries.  Otherwise, I just ate greens, proteins & berries.  Friday & Saturday I slept through the night without waking at all.

Yesterday we were at my in-laws for their anniversary.  They are horrible eaters – quite possibly the worst eaters I know.  There is not a vegetable or fruit to be found in their house.  Dave and I got there after a long afternoon appointment and were already running late for dinner.  They ordered me a salad for dinner, but did not get it without cheese.  So I removed as much of the bleu cheese as I could, but there was still a dusting of it as well as some grated parmesan (I think).  I’ve had this salad before, so the dressing has never been an issue (in terms of hidden gluten).  I also ate 3 Hooters chicken wings, which I carefully removed all coating from before I ate.  And then later in the evening, since I was starving, I grabbed some potato chips (I know I shouldn’t eat them, but honestly, it was the only thing in the house that I could reasonably eat and I was starving… I don’t normally like potato chips, so I wasn’t satisfying a craving).

And I woke up at 3:45 and didn’t get back to sleep until 5:45… slept until 6:45.  I took 10mg of Melatonin.  I tried reading.  I tried the meditations.  I tried watching boring tv.  Nothing worked – just a solid 2 hours of being wide awake.  Not thinking of anything except a song running through my head.  Not upset.  Not worried.   Not anxious.  Nothing.  Just wide awake.

I’m really, really upset.  I cannot make even the slightest mistake in my diet without suffering for it.  And the thought of living like this for the rest of my life is distressing – I’m missing out on some of my favorite things in life: ice cream dates with my girls, wine & cheese with my husband.

We are going on vacation on Friday.  I am committed to eating strictly greens, protein & berries from this point forward.  BUT, when I come home I want to be as aggressive as possible in getting rid of this.  If you believe that it is candida and that if we can get rid of it I can eventually live normally, then I want to get rid of it as quickly and aggressively as possible.  I would do so this week, but I don’t want to feel crappy on vacation… if you don’t think that will be an issue, then by all means lets start asap.

Could you put together a plan of action for me so I can start right away on Sunday the 11th?  If possible, I’d like to be able to have what I need in the house already when I get back – so if you could do so by Wednesday night, then I can go out on Thursday if necessary.

If you’re uncomfortable with this, then I’ll need to go with plan B and have you help me find a whole health doctor in my area.

I know this is my fault for straying yesterday.  I felt like I didn’t have any options.  But it is still my responsibility.  So I’m angry with myself, but I really need to either get healthy, or be mentally okay with eating like this for the rest of my life.

Thanks!

Jana 

Friday, July 26, 2013

Day 12 - Friday July 12, 2013

Sleep: Getting better!  Sleep by 11, up at 4, took 5mg of Melatonin, back to sleep (although kind of restless) and up at 6:40 with alarm.

I am so thrilled to have gotten an idea of what the heck is going on with me and thrilled that we can do something about it and there is hope.  It is going to be a long process, but I'm willing to do what I need to do.  I've been told by no less than 3 older women (60's) that this waking in the middle of the night and not being able to get back to sleep thing is an indication and symptom of menopause and there is nothing I can do about it except get meds from a doctor... and deal with it for 10-15 years (like they did).

Bunk.

I'm 37.  I should not feel like I'm 57 - achy everywhere and always tired and dragging.  I should not have to just deal with sleep issues like that and for that long.  And Christene is confident that we will get this resolved and that I am on track to feeling well again.


Yesterday's food:

Breakfast: big breakfast salad - organic greens, raw onions, raw garlic, red pepper, grape tomatoes, 2 organic, free range eggs fried in olive oil + salt & pepper, and 1/4 of an avocado.  Large glass of lemon water.


Snack: handful of fresh blueberries, couple of organic strawberries.

Lunch: Hemp chocolate protein smoothie made with organic frozen raspberries, organic frozen blueberries, 1/4 of an avocado, 1/2 T of coconut oil.  + bowl of raw cucumber, tomato, pepper, onion salad w/ 1/4 of an avocado.

Snack: 1 large granny smith apple.

Dinner: Big plate of organic greens & organic spinch, topped with baked organic, free range chicken tenderloins seasoned with s&P, 1/4 of an avocado, raw onions, raw garlic, grape tomatoes, minimal greek olive vinegrette (less than 1g of sugar).  Plus 1 slice of leftover pork loin from night before.

Before bed: 1 cup of decaf Honey Vanilla Chamomile tea

Weight: 129.6

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Day 11 - Thursday July 25, 2013

Sleep: Asleep by 11, woke at 2:30, took 5mg Melatonin fell back to sleep, woke at 4:30, took 5mg of Melatonin fell back to sleep.  Awake with alarm around 7.  Best night of sleep since Saturday.
(Sun/Mon/Tue were 2-3 hour in the middle of the night disrupted sleep nights).  

I spoke with Christene (health coach) yesterday.  I needed to find out if I was screwed for the rest of my life.  Given the fact that I had 3 nights of disrupted sleep, I was in a pretty down and discouraged mood and very upset that I may never get to eat normally again.

She believes that I have a raging candida issue.  Not just mild.  Raging.  So we're going to hit it hard with diet & supplements.  She said candida can be very tricky and could take 3-4 weeks to get rid of, or 2 years.  I'm hoping for the shorter time.

Candida feed off of yeast & sugar.  So my gluten issue could very definitely be related to the candida issue.  And the wine set it off again on Monday night.  

So now that I know what is going on, I feel better equipped to choose food to eat.  I need to keep adding lemon to my water, keep loading up on fresh veggies and cut down on anything sweet.  I realized that even though I was eating a very plant focused diet, I was choosing the plants that were sweet: melons, grapes, cherries, sugar snap peas, dried fruit, etc.  I need to focus more on fresh veggies - rather than roasted, sauteed, or grilled and keep up with the big salads.  

I am totally willing to go as hard core as necessary to resolve this issue.  I'm so sick of being one bite of food away from not sleeping.  And I'm tired of my body holding onto or gaining weight with the slightest mis-step in my diet.

We are going on vacation next month and that is going to be more difficult, however, it is not a kid-less vacation, so I won't miss out on the nice dinners with wine with Dave.  I'm really, really hoping that things are resolved by the time we go to Costa Rica next March so I can enjoy nice dinners and wine while we're there.

I can and will do this.  Candida: beware!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Day 10 - Wednesday July 24, 2013

I had intended to update this more frequently so I could go back and read it when I needed ideas or a refresher.  Hopefully I'll remember to do so more frequently from this point forward.

I slept so much better last week.  Most nights I woke up around 2:30 to go to the bathroom, took 5mg of Melatonin and went right back to bed and slept until my alarm.  There was even one night that I slept through the entire night without waking.  It was heavenly.

We ate really well on this plan last week and even made it through a weekend away from home at my parents house. It took a lot of planning and a trip to the grocery store, but we were able to stay on plan all weekend.

Then I made the mistake of getting a bottle of wine for dinner on Monday night.  I had 1 1/2 glasses.  I was happy - I missed wine.  And I've spent the last 2 nights waking up and not falling back to sleep again.

I was feeling so good and so positive and hopeful... and now I'm upset and discouraged again.  Disrupted sleep really wreaks havoc on me.  

I spoke with my health coach yesterday morning and told her about it.  After asking a few questions, she decided that I have a candida issue... which is interesting because I thought i had a candida issue a few years ago after taking a round of antibiotics and feeling unreasonably tired all the time.  At that time I cut out all foods that had yeast or sugar and felt better within 2 weeks.  Now I need to cut out sugar entirely (alcohol, dates, dried fruit) and add a probiotic to try to crowd out the yeast.  So I got that and started it yesterday.

An example of my daily meals:

Breakfast: I make a big breakfast salad: saute some onions, peppers, tomatoes, mushrooms in butter and put them on a huge plate full of organic mixed greens.  Add 2 fried organic, free range eggs & 1/4 avocado (if I have one).  Drink a tall 20oz glass of lemon water & take all of my supplements.


Mid-morning: cup of green tea

Lunch: Hemp protein smoothie made with water, banana & berries.  Bowl of some sort of vegetables - usually a cucumber, tomato, onion, pepper salad mixture (add avocado if I have some).

Afternoon snack (if I remember): strawberry infused water with basil & ACV, small bowl of berries.

Dinner: chicken saugsages, chicken tacos, hamburgers, pork, etc.  This has been my biggest challenge because we didn't normally eat a lot of meat for dinners... but we're figuring it out.  Served with vegetables - grilled or a salad.

Before bed: cup of herbal honey vanilla chamomile tea, sometimes with 2 pieces of dried mango.

I'm enjoying the food, a lot.  It hasn't been as expensive as I anticipated.  Although the supplements could get that way if I have to continue taking them or keep adding to them. 

I have not worked out in probably 3 weeks because of my sleeping issues - that is incredibly bothersome to me, but that issue will get fixed in time, too.  I need to do this one day at a time and have confidence that my health coach knows what she knows and can help me.   

Monday, July 15, 2013

Monday July 15, 2013 - Day 1

I am a mess.  I am not sleeping.  Every night I fall asleep quite easily, but I wake up between 2:30-3:00 and am wide awake.  I cannot fall back to sleep for 2-3 hours.  This is not working well for me and I am miserable.  Last night I woke up at 3:00 and didn't fall asleep again until 5:30 and then woke up at 7:00.  This morning I am not functioning very well - very tired, impatient and intolerant and I want to cry.  I cried all last night and again this morning when I woke up, I just don't understand why my body refuses to sleep and on a certain level, I don't understand why God won't do something about it.  

Yesterday I had a consultation with a health coach and she assures me that she get get me healed.  I think the issue is my adrenal glands... she has put me on a paleo diet: no grains, no dairy, no sugar.  Mainly vegetables, meat & berries.  She's suggested that I take L-glutamine which will heal my gut.  Also Vit C & B and another supplement to support my adrenal glands.  Magnesium for my liver.  

Dave is doing the paleo diet along with me.  Today is day 1.  She told us to eat the cleanest (organic) we can reasonably afford - so grassfed, organic meat & eggs, organic fruit and vegetables.

For breakfast I had 2 grassfed, organic eggs fried in olive oil atop a bed of organic baby spinach, with chopped orange peppers, red onion, grape tomatoes, and 1/4 of an avocado.

Lunch will be a hemp protein shake made with spinach & berries.

Dinner will be taco chicken salad.

I will also be drinking green tea to replace my coffee, lemon water throughout the day, and strawberry basil infused water mixed with apple cider vinegar (which is much more delicious than it sounds).

I was excited about all of this yesterday, today I can't get excited about anything - I feel like I may never sleep normally again.  And when I sleep like this, I can't get up in the morning to work out and can't find the energy to do it during the day.  So my whole life is kind of thrown off balance by this sleeping situation.  

One day at a time.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Tuesday June 4, 2013 - CrossFit WOD - the ladder

Warm up -
3 sets of:
50 jumping jacks
10 pushups
10 air squats

30sec side lunge stretch each leg
60sec butterfly stretch
30sec dynamic arm circles
30sec wide arm circles front
30sec wide arm circles back

For time:
50 pushups

40 lunges (each leg)
30 crunches
20 air squats
10 squat thrusts
60 sec plank
10 squat thrusts
20 air squats
30 crunches
40 lunges (each leg)
50 push ups

18:28:11

first set of pushups I did 25, then sets of 5 until i got to 50 - all up on toes.
second set of pushups I did 25, then 10 on knees, 5 toes, 5 knees, 5 knees.


Monday, February 18, 2013

Monday February 18, 2013

Workout: P90x chest/back
Weight: 129.4

I'm back to weighing myself everyday because the amount of water I'm retaining is driving me crazy.  My weight fluctuates sometimes 4lbs over night.  So I'm weighing and actually graphing it this time to watch for an overall trend.

I've been keeping up with my swimming 2-3x/week and some sort of resistance training 3x/week.  Since being entirely gluten free, I've gone back to p90x and have done well with it - in terms of the pain issues I was having in my shoulder and elbow.  My swimming has improved a lot.  I feel much more comfortable with the front crawl and I'm more fluid and faster with it.  Previous to last week, I was good if I did 1000yds in 35 minutes.  I'm now doing 1000yds alternating breast 100yds & crawl 100yds in 30 minutes.

I've been almost completely gluten free now for a couple of weeks and I can tell.  I have been sleeping much better and deeper at night, my aches are minimal and usually associated with the difficulty of my resistance workouts... therefore they are more muscle aches than joint aches.  Last Monday was the first time I did p90x chest/back after a few weeks off from doing any kind of pushups, and I was SORE until at least Thursday.  But my shoulder and elbow have calmed down a lot - my shoulder is still weak and still hurts a lot while doing pushups, but its not as debilitating.

However.

Last night we took the girls to Dairy Queen and had ice cream.  I was not thinking.  I have been so good with being gluten free - I've had GF pizza from aurelios, I've had GF pizza from Trader Joe's (better and cheaper than aurelios), I've been very careful and I've felt the difference.  But I didn't think about it and the cone of my ice cream cone has resulted in a horrible night and day.  Last night I woke up at 2:30 and if I slept at all between then and 6:00 when I finally got out of bed, it was very minimal or very restless because I felt like I was awake the entire time.  Today, my shoulder and elbow are on fire again after my workout, my hips are terrible and my fingers are terrible.  It is amazing to me how that little bit makes such a huge difference.

I am glad that it happened, though, because we are going on vacation next week and I've already been contemplating just giving in and dealing with the consequences of eating gluten while we're there.  But this reminder is setting my mind straight.  I will continue to be as careful as possible while there, because this is not worth it.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Thursday February 7, 2013

Workout: 1100 yds swim
weight: ?

Went to the gym this morning and swam.  Alternated 100yds breast / 100yds crawl.  It was enjoyable - I'm definitely getting faster and more fluid with my crawl stroke.  I did 100yds backstroke (frog style) as a cool down, which is so relaxing.

I had a small square of ghiradelli dark chocolate yesterday.  Before I bought it I looked at the ingredients and soy was bolded.  I figured it wouldn't be an issue.  But I did not sleep well again last night.  And when I say that, I mean I sleep most of the night, but I can tell when I wake up (at 4:45 for no reason) that it was a restful sleep.  Hard to describe, but I feel it in my eyes.  Other than chocolate the only other thing that I ate that could perhaps be questioned was a corn tortilla.  But I don't think that should be an issue.  

My neck is also achier than it has been in the last couple of days.

Today I had half of a Corner Bakery salad with minimal dressing.  The salad itself is fine - chopped salad: greens, bacon, bleu cheese, avocado, tomato.  From what I read online, all of their salad dressings are GF, so hopefully (fingers crossed) i won't have a sleeping issue tonight.  Hoping that whatever I had yesterday was not enough to have to work out of my system over several days.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Wednesday February 6, 2013

Catch up

Last week, I swam on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday.  I did not workout on the other days as I was really trying to focus on eliminating gluten from my diet and sleeping.  The last time I had gluten was Sunday January 27th and it has taken me this long to start sleeping better and feeling better.  I could tell I was beginning to sleep better by the weekend, but last week I was still very achy in my neck, hands, fingers and hips.  

Last night I slept really, really well - deep, restfully, only woken up briefly by the dog.  Prior to the last 2 nights, my sleep was not that way - I felt like most of the night I was in that half sleep/half awake feeling.  I didn't feel rested at all.  I was waking up randomly every night once or twice and having a hard time getting back to sleep.

Over the last 2-3 days I've noticed my neck pain (arthritis) is gone.  My fingers do not hurt, my hips do not hurt, my wrists do not hurt.  My elbow and shoulder pain are less.

If this blood test does not show a sensitivity to gluten, I will be shocked.  Shocked, I tell you.  My food journal and observations seem pretty clear.

At the end of last week I pretty much felt sorry for myself and mourned the loss of gluten. No more pizza.  No more granola (actually, Jan 27th wasn't my last gluten... I mistakenly had some in granola on Wed and then there must have been some in the salad dressing I had at the Karners on Saturday).  Its going to be hard to eat out at a restaurant, etc.  But based on the difference I feel in my body, I'm willing to give it up.

Over the weekend I decided I needed to get serious about actually TRYING to lose these 5-7 pounds that I gained over the summer (my beer weight).  So I started counting calories again on Monday and have hit the workouts hard.  I'm staying below 1500 cal/day and working out everyday.

Monday - deck of cards + 2 miles on the treadmill
tricep dips, burpees, weighted squats, super skaters (ran a mile before & after)
Tuesday - 1050 yds swimming (35:00): 500 breast, 500 crawl, 50 back
Today - deck of cards + 2 miles
tricep dips, weighted sumo squats, lunges and twisted mountain climbers

I've gotten better at the swimming.  Prior to saturday I was consistently swimming 1000 yds in 35ish minutes.  Saturday I swam 1000yds in 30 minutes so I did an extra 200 yds.  I love it now and really look forward to it.  Its great to see progress, too.

Starting weight (Monday February 4th): 131.2

Going to the Dominican Republic on February 23rd - hoping to be a lot closer to 125 by then!

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Tuesday January 29, 2013

Workout: 1000 yards swim
Weight: 132.2

Did not workout yesterday.  I slept so horribly on Sunday night that I opted to sleep in a little yesterday morning... which means that I was awake from 4:45-6:00 and then dozed off until Nora woke me up at 6:30.  I really have to believe this is a gluten issue.  I was doing well last week and as the week went on the more days without gluten I had the better I was sleeping.  Then on Sunday - because I knew I was getting the blood test on Monday - I just gave in and had pancakes and a couple of pieces of pizza.  And then slept terribly again that night.  And my wrist and fingers of my right hand and my neck hurt a lot.  My weight has jumped 4 lbs in 2 days.  It has to be the issue.  I got the test yesterday and Dr. Steve said it takes about 3 weeks to get the results, but I am firmly committed to getting the gluten out of my system.  He said he had a lot of gluten issues - headaches were his primary complaint, but he also had recurring tendinitis that wouldn't heal.  After 3 months off of gluten he no longer had issues.  Hmmm - sounds familiar: tendinitis in my left ankle, my right knee, my right shoulder, my right forearm.

Joined the gym this morning and swam 1000 yards.  Takes me just slightly over 30 minutes to do 1000 yards.  I did:
300 yds breast

100 yds crawl
100 yds back
100 yds breast
100 yds crawl
alternate 25 back/25crawl for 200 yds
75 breast
25 crawl

Friday, January 25, 2013

Friday January 25, 2013

Workout: Deck of cards - 20:00
Weight: 129.0

Forgot to blog about yesterday - went swimming again.  I kind of lost count on how many total yards I swam.  It was at least 1000, but could have been as high as 1150.  I started with 300 yds of breast stroke and then tried to work on my front crawl.  It is hard work - I have no idea how people just do lap after lap after lap without resting after each 25yds to  catch their breath.  Maybe I'll get to that point some day.  

My body was tired last night.  It doesn't feel like a hard workout at the time, other than the breathing, but my body is wiped later in the day.

Today I got up and did another deck of cards workout - jumping jacks, crunches, deadlift squats, tricep dips/speed skaters.  I started out with the tricep dips, but I think my whole right upper arm is jacked up.  The first set was fine and then after 3 on the second set I couldn't do anymore because of my elbow, so I switched that suit to speed skaters.  It was a good workout.  Wasn't as good as Wednesdays but it was fine.

I'm going to do my best to rest my arm/shoulder for a couple of weeks.  I'm going to continue with swimming/running and the deck of cards workouts.  I had thought about doing yoga on my off days, but even that, I think, could strain my shoulder with the downward and upward dogs especially.  

Next week I'm going to try to go get the blood test.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Wednesday January 23, 2012

Workout: Deck of Cards - 25:00
Weight: 129.2

After doing a minimal amount of googling last night, I think I have a strain on my bicep tendon that attaches the tendon to the shoulder.  And quite possibly a strain to the tendon that connects the bicep to the elbow at the bottom end.  So on the diagram below it would a strain to #10 and #4.  Those are the exact places that I'm feeling pain and stress.  It could also be tendinitis in those places - I'm still unclear about the difference.  I don't believe it is a pull or a tear as I don't have bruising or irregular shaped muscles.  However, it is tender to the touch in both of those places and also painful when using my arm in certain ways.  #4 is painful when I do things like cut into a hard fruit/vegetable - using my arm as a lever basically.  So when I cut watermelon, or pineapple, or butternut squash (before any of them are peeled).  #10 is painful when I raise my arm laterally or out to the side and often starts aching when I've been doing a lot with the computer mouse.


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Yesterday I accidentally broke my gluten fast by tasting a cookie bar that I had made for the girls.  I didn't realize it until I had eaten 1/2 of one.  And because I had already broken it, I had a flour tortilla at Dave's folk's for dinner, and realized today that I believe commercially made taco seasoning has gluten in it.  All of that has been enough for me to decide to go get the blood test.  I'm driving myself crazy over here and I want to just know something definitvely so I know what to avoid.  My hands and wrists are very achy.  My hips are achy.  My knees are achy.  I can't recover from any kind of tendinitis anywhere.  So I'm going to discontinue p90x, except for the legs workout and I'll omit the back exercises.  I think I'm also going to go back to doing more yoga, I just haven't gotten a dvd that I really love and feel like I've had a good workout with it.  But I think I need to just recognize and acknowledge that I need to stop the craziness - if something is hurting me, I need to stop doing it.  This is taking a big hit on my pride.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Tuesday January 22, 2013

Workout: 1000 yards - swimming
weight: 129.8

Went to The Core and swam this morning.  I got in the pool around 11:20 and had swum 1000 yards by 11:55.  I don't know what that means or if its good, but I felt like it was a good workout.  I did 250 yards breast, 50 yards crawl, 50 yards back, and then I don't remember.  I do know that I ended the workout with 250 yards breast stroke again.  I wasn't able to do much more than 100 yards of crawl at one time.  It was very tiring for me.  I worked hard at turning my hips, but I found that as I got toward the end of the lap and got more tired I started sinking and would have more difficulty with the hips and breathing.  Its going to take a lot of practice, but I'm excited that I can at least complete a couple of laps...  when I tried to swim at the high school last year I had no idea what I was doing and couldn't make it more than 2 strokes without giving up.  It is definitely tough for me - by the end of the 50 yds, I was wasted - every time.  Like upset stomach wasted.

Today my right shoulder/bicep, wrist and hand are hurting really bad.  I think because of the burpees I did yesterday - there is a plank position in them that caused me fits.  So I will eliminate those next time.

Thinking that I won't be able to do arms/shoulders tomorrow because of the pain issues I have right now.  I will do a deck of cards workout again in the morning.

Monday, January 21, 2013

Monday January 21, 2013

Workout: Deck of cards (30:00)
Weight: 131.0
One Year Ago

We went to Midland to visit Mike and Cara this weekend.  They have a membership to the community center and our whole family was able to go with them for the afternoon.  It is awesome - I'm sure its like a YMCA, but we have nothing like that by us... just expensive gyms.  The kids all did the rock climbing wall.  Mike and I swam laps, Dave ran on the indoor track, Cara played raquetball with Joseph and then the kids all swam in the leisure pool.  It was really cool and I'm definitely jealous of it.

I worked hard at trying to figure out the front crawl stroke and I enjoyed it.  I took my time and Mike also told me to turn my hips more, which helped a LOT.  It is a lot of mental work for me because there are so many things to think about while doing it, but I really liked it and now view it as a challenge - I need to keep doing it so I can get better and see improvement.  I'm going to find a place to go - very excited about it now.

Today the girls were off from school so I slept in and almost didn't get around to working out.  I was discouraged because I don't think I can do the push up/pull up workout with p90x anymore.  I have something seriously wrong with my right bicep/shoulder.  Just sitting here right now I feel pain and i'm not doing anything.  I did something to it (don't recall anything specific) during the last rounds of P90x I did last May and have stopped doing all pushups since then.  I would think that it would have healed in that 6 months, but it is back worse than before.  Muscle, not joint.

I was getting kind of upset about it and told Dave I didn't know what to do for a work out... he suggested I do a card of decks workout.  So I put one together:
Clubs - squats

Diamonds - burpees
Spades - side crunches
Hearts - barre lifts

It was a good workout.  I would replace some of the exercises next time, but it was good.  Burpees are hard - especially when pulling several diamonds right after another.

Cut out gluten entirely today and am keeping a food journal.  I need to get to the bottom of this.  My wrists ache, thumb aches, neck/lower back joints ache, hips ache.  Enough.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Friday January 18, 2013

Workout: P90x legs/back
Weight: 131.4
One Year Ago

Legs and back - my favorite workout of the series.  Nothing much to report.

I gave up on anything eating related.  I'm so discouraged by how I'm feeling - bloated, achy, unrested, weight is up.  I don't know what is going on or what is to blame, which is very frustrating.  I started a food journal yesterday.  I'm going to start keeping track of what I am eating every day and how I feel and perhaps I can get a better idea of what might be causing what.  

I'm also wondering if P90x is too much on my back - for some reason my back/neck/shoulder muscles get really clenched when I do these workouts now.  My neck joint is hurting a lot (arthritis) and my lower back is also very stiff and pained (herniated disks).  I also slept very poorly again last night.  I didn't eat anything that would scream gluten to me, but I wasn't careful either and there may have been some in some of the foods I ate.  So I'm just really discouraged and feeling gross and yuck right now.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Thursday January 17, 2013

Workout: Run 3.17 miles
Weight: ?
Two Years Ago


I did not blog yesterday... I did p90x shoulders/arms and it kicked my butt.  My body was so sore yesterday that I felt like I needed to take a bath in icy hot.  I iced and heated my shoulders and neck all morning and felt better as the day went on.

I was going to get up and do yogaX with Dave this morning, but I slept horribly again last night (more on that) and was awake from 4:15 - 5:45, so I went back to sleep until 7:30 and felt so much better because of it.  Decided to run outside today because the sun is out and it is gorgeous.  I had a really hard time settling in for the first mile - I was against the slight breeze, which at these temps makes everything feel icy.  The tips of my fingers were frozen and every breath into my nose felt like ice... so I had a hard time settling into a good rhythm with my breathing.  After 1.25 miles I stopped.  Stopped - not just walked, stopped, looked around, caught my breath and then continued.  It helped and the rest of the run was much better.  I ended up walking a little bit here and there but ended with an average of 10:14/mile.

I need new headphones - mine have a short so the music is only in my right ear.  Meh.

Had an interesting eating related thing happen - I believe it is eating related anyway.  I had some cornbread yesterday - which has gluten in it.  And I slept like crap again last night.  So I had gluten Sat/Sun - slept horribly.  No gluten M/T - slept well.  Gluten W - slept horribly.  This just seems way too coincidental.

So I think back throughout the last few years about my sleeping and gluten etc.  I'm not a huge gluten eater to begin with, but have never paid any attention to it.  I know, though, that there have been periods of time that I have had a lot of sleeping issues - in particular I remember feeling like I needed to start tracking my sleeping vs. cycle and see if it was cycle related.  I'm wondering now, if it hasn't been gluten related all along.  So I guess I will keep trying to keep track of it.  I feel like I should just go get the blood test because otherwise my extended family won't really believe it - suffice it to say none of them believe that food has an effect on the way a person feels other than digestive stuff (gas, bloating) - I'm pretty sure my parents think I'm a nut job with the way I eat or try to eat.  So I'm going to work on that - trying to figure out if I want to go to the chiropractor or my pcp.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Tuesday January 15, 2013

Workout: p90x CardioX
Weight: 130.2
Two Years Ago

Way too cold to run outside, even if it is sunny and beautiful.  So I thought about doing PlyometriX, but decided that I didn't want to die and opted for the shorter and somewhat easier CarioX.  It has been a really long time since I've done this workout.  It was good - I liked it.  

Whats up with that weight?  I was pretty pissed when I saw that, but I am still retaining a lot of water right now so I'm not concerned.  My jeans are fitting well, so based on that I'm good.  I can tell that my hands and wrists are feeling bloated, which is how I always know that I'm retaining a lot of water.

Not much to report... yesterday I felt nauseous all day.  Today I'm feeling good.  Slept much better last night than I did the previous two nights.  Finished eating at 7:30 and was fine with that even though I could have eaten for another hour or so.  I think ultimately, if I decide not to continue on with the 8/16 thing (haven't given up on it), at least it is getting me used to having a cut-off time every night, which is something that I always struggled with before this.  Not giving up on the 8/16 thing, just going to keep blogging and tracking and after a few weeks I'll reevaluate.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Monday January 14, 2013

Workout: P90x Chest/Back
Weight: ? 
One year ago

Workout was good this morning.  I increased my reps on a lot of the exercises and I didn't feel completely out of my league.  There are a few kinds of pushups that I really want to master, but I realize that even after 2 consecutive rounds of p90x last year I did not master them, so it is not likely to happen soon.

I did not workout on Saturday - I had planned to run, but when I woke up my legs were unbearably sore from Friday's workout and then as my day progressed I ran out of opportunity.  I was bummed, too, because it was warm enough to run outside and its getting colder and colder this week.

The last 2 nights I have slept terribly.  This morning I also woke up and realized that I was retaining water in a huge way - my rings are tight, I barely had to go to the bathroom when I got up - and I had drank 16 oz of water right before I got into bed.  While thinking about these 2 things, I realized that the only thing that I have done differently in the last 2 days is eat a significant amount of gluten.  Saturday I had cornbread and last night I had breadsticks and some more cornbread.  I had thought that if I had a sensitivity to anything it was probably dairy, but now I'm wondering if it might actually be gluten.  I should just go get the blood test and be done with it.

Friday, January 11, 2013

Friday January 11, 2013`

Workout: p90x back/legs
Weight: ?
One Year Ago
Two Years Ago

Back/Legs is one of my very favorite workout videos - soooo good.  This is the first time that I've included the back portion in quite a while, though.  It is a killer workout and my legs are incredibly tired this morning.  I hope to see improvement in my pullups next week already - I've lost so much since last May when we stopped doing P90x.

Not much more I can say about the 8/16 eating plan than what I've said before.  I like it and it has not been difficult.  Last night I was actually able to stop eating at 8pm, which is earlier than most nights this week.  Our evening schedule has not been conducive to stopping early, but hopefully next week I can get a little bit better of a handle on that.  With Dave having the flu this week + late eye doctor appointment it was pretty tough to stop much earlier than 8:30/8:45 most nights.  But I'm fine with that  - I would just prefer to eat my breakfast around 10 instead of 1 ;)

Last night I broke my gluten fast.  We went to Dave's folks' for dinner.  I made a big salad with lots of greens, quinoa, pecans, & cranberries - which was really good.  But they all ate lasagna casserole.  It looked soooo good, but I resisted.  I'm really thinking dairy may be the issue, so all of that cheese is killer - but it was killing me.  I finally gave in and had a roll, though, so there went the gluten.  

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Thursday January 10, 2013

Workout: P90x yoga
weight: ?
One Year Ago

Got up early to do p90x yoga and was kind of excited to do a lower key workout that would stretch me.  But I only made it 25 minutes out of the 45 I normally do.  My shoulders were so sore and every time I did a chataranga I wasn't sure if I'd be able to push myself back up.  

It will get better.

Saw a commercial last night for Rockin Body and it looks really fun.  Its only $20 so I'm thinking about getting it.  I want to continue with weight training and running, so I have to put some thought into what kind of workout schedule I would do if I added that one in.  Maybe I need to consider my workout schedule in 2 week chunks instead of 1 week chunks?  I'll have to think about this some more before I go ahead and order it.

Eating again was fine yesterday, but once again didn't finish until 8:30 because we didn't get home from piano lessons until 7:30.  It just is what it is.  Just a drag to not be able to eat until almost 1:00 in the afternoon, but obviously I've been able to work it out - not hungry really, just out of routine.  Still like this plan, though.  I should probably read the book to see why I'm doing what I'm doing ;)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Wednesday January 9, 2013

Workout: P90x Shoulders/Arms
Weight: ?
Two Years Ago

Had intended to get up and do this workout in the morning, but really, really wanted to go back to bed.  So I did.

My arms/chest/back still hurt really badly from Monday's workout, plus my legs now hurt from running yesterday.  All because I took such a huge break.  I'll get it back in no time.  I just keep telling myself that I need to get through the first week and then it'll be better.


So this 8/16 diet is pretty cool, I think.  I don't know what kind of results I'm going to see in the first week, but I like it and think it is pretty easy.  My biggest problem is that we don't get around to eating dinner until later, which means I can't start eating until later.  That has always been the problem with me going with the idea of cutting off eating at a certain time at night... sometimes we don't get dinner until 8:30 - so if I say I'm not going to eat after 7, then I'm screwed.  This plan is nice because you just make sure you fast for 16 hours from the last time you ate.  I'm actually an hour overdue - and I don't feel starving at all.  And I like the fact that I don't have to count calories or worry about what I'm eating - not that I would be anyway since I went back to plant-based and gluten/dairy/sugar free, but it is nice to not be so concerned about all of that and trying to enter every recipe into mfp.  I like it.

I'm hoping that with the combination of all the things I'm doing, my arms will be ripped when we go to Dominican at the end of February ;)

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Tuesday January 8, 2013

Workout: Run 3.17 miles
Weight: 129.4

I was planning to swim today in the afternoon.  I didn't have to work in the morning so I checked out the pool schedule to see if I could go earlier - couldn't really go until 10:30ish and by that point I had decided that I'm just not into the swimming thing.  I could possibly get into it if it was closer or if I felt like I knew what I was doing.  And the fact that I have to work around swim team and aquatic aerobic schedules is frustrating to me.  So I ran instead.  I can run at any time - right outside my door and I can decide to do it on a whim.  I don't have to figure out where I'm going to find 1 1/2 - 2 hours to go to the gym and be home in time for the girls.  And the fact that I can't listen to music and its super boring is really the nail in the coffin for me.  So I'm glad I didn't spend more than $30 on a swimsuit and didn't pay for a membership.

Ran 3.17 - my normal route.  It was really, really hard.  I haven't run in probably 6 weeks or more, so it was rough.  I pushed myself to not stop to walk even if it meant I was running super slow.  I ran a full mile, walked a little, ran 1.15 miles, walked, and then ran .75 miles.  I'm proud of myself for working so hard and getting through it.  

Day 2 of this 8/16 diet.  Can't eat until 12:45 - I'm not hungry, I just really like my oatmeal breakfast, especially with a cup of coffee :)  Dave is home with day 2 of the flu - we're going to head out to get his car epa tested and then I can eat when I get home.  

Monday, January 7, 2013

January 7, 2013

Workout: P90x Back/Chest
Weight: 129.4
One Year Ago

And so...  I wish I wasn't such an idiot and hadn't given in to the detox over Christmas.  Oh well.

After not working out for 6 weeks I started up again with P90x.  Its a killer and I suck.  Bad.  But I did it.  I pressed play.  And thats the important thing at this point.  I had 1 scoop of protein powder mixed with water & 1/4c of almond milk immediately afterward - I'm hoping that having some sort of recovery drink will help me recover and not be so sore and useless.  Tomorrow I'm going to swim in the afternoon - it shall be interesting.

I'm back to gluten/dairy/sugar free as of today.  I haven't been achy in the last couple of weeks and have not had any of my previous issues, however, I'm already feeling a tweak in my right inner elbow/bicep and my right shoulder - in fact, I eliminated the reverse grip chinups altogether because it hurts my right arm too much.  I'm hoping that by eliminating these things I can put a stop to these recurring pain points.  Or lessen them.  I will take less pain, too.

I'm also going to start the whole eat for 8 hours / fast for 16 hours thing today.  This too, shall be interesting.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

January 2, 2013

Sooooo...

I did well with the elimination diet, I really did.  Until Christmas Eve and then I gave in to sugar and have not crawled back out of it.  And by Christmas when the cheese plate was set out before dinner I caved again with Dairy.  And then as long as I had already given in to 2/3 of my eliminated stuff I just gave in to gluten too to have it over with.  I can't say that I feel achy or much different, but I do feel as if I am retaining more water - which would make sense.  I haven't eaten a ton of dairy since then as I'm beginning to think that may be the issue.


I weighed myself this morning and was up to 129.6, which is not surprising with the amount of undiscipline I've had in the last week.

Today I got back to oatmeal for breakfast and trying to eat mainly plant based throughout the day.  I have not jumped back on the complete plant based wagon yet, but I will next week.  I have a hard time starting things in the middle of the week.  I will be better this week, but won't kick it in hard core until Monday.  

Now my biggest thing is trying to decide what to do for workouts.  I haven't worked out since mid-end of November.  It has been nice to not have the added thing in my day to figure out - especially while I've been busy with Christmas - but its time to get back to it.

I'm considering:
1) running 3x/week + body weight workouts & yoga
2) swimming 3x/week + body weight workouts & yoga
3) P90x + running 2x/week

If I begin p90x next week, then week 8 - a rest week - would fall right when we're in the Dominican Republic.  That would work out well.  I might do that - have to think about it some more.

Not sure about the running/swimming thing.  I miss running.  I don't want to not be a runner.  I'm just wondering if it causes me too much pain.  And I would like swimming except for the 15 minute drive to/from the gym. It doesn't seem like a lot, but it feels like a huge burden.  

I have 4 days to figure this out.  I'm thinking, though, that I may be in the mood for p90x.